~ LiFe iN NeW HouSe ~
I’m no longer as talkative as last time anymore ever since I shifted to my new house a month ago. Slowly and slowly I’m returning back to last time the quiet me who even can didn’t talk for a few months when I first entered my secondary school. Never judge a book from its cover. No one knows how I actually feel now and nobody expect I will become like this. Although I always smile and laugh, but am I really smile and laugh from bottom of my heart? Does it matter? May be it doesn’t matter. So long as I always bring happiness to people then my life sure will be more meaningful and wonderful.
I’m more easily happy than sad. I can even laugh when people scolded me. What I laugh for? Actually I always laugh at my own mistakes then after that, I will change it and avoid from repeating the same mistake again. Furthermore, I also laugh myself when I fell down though is embarrassing. You may think that I’m crazy but actually I’m not because that’s me, Sjhvaun Khong Yi Yin. You will know me better when you get to know me.
Oh no! I’m out of topic. Ok, return to the main topic, ‘life in my new house’. Do I feel lonely at home? Honestly, yes, sometimes I do feel lonely. Sometimes my housemates and roommate may think that I’m weird. My life is just study and nothing other than that. Normally, I prefer to stay back in library to study or do homework after class. This habit had occurred since last semester where by I dislike go home mainly because I didn’t want to go home to see my ex-roommate. That time may be because I couldn’t stand of her strange attitude. But I cannot deny saying that I don’t have attitude problem. I believe that I also have some attitude problems sometimes. Although how worst was the situation, I still will share all my problems with my previous roommate once I back from college regardless of happy or sad things, I still will tell. But now, I never even share my problems neither with my new roommate nor housemates. I never talk or talk extremely less once I back home nowadays. I rather keep all my problems in the deep bottom of my heart also I won’t say out. May be because I don’t get along with them, I always stay in my own room once I back home. What I’m doing in my room? Watch series or anime or study or do homework. Mostly, I will just do homework and study by listening songs. That’s my life! Actually I have a quite close friend in my current house. But I don’t know why I talk less or even don’t talk nowadays. I really don’t know why. Whenever I face difficulty, I will think of all sorts of ways to settle it myself and I never ask for my housemates or roommate’s help. One of the reason of always be in my room may be because of I think that I have my own life and they have their own life. Everyone has their own freedom and own life. And that’s why I never inform anyone, not even my roommate about where I went and what time I’m going back although sometimes I do go home late.
So, believe or not, that’s the yi yin in the new house. And that’s my life in my new house.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Sunday, October 05, 2008
~ First Dinner at my New House ~
I can never feel that kind of feeling (family warm) again ever since my grandma passed away. My family has a lot of problem and it can't be solve already. For very long time, I unable to eat home cooking food as my mum don't cook for family anymore. So, we have to always eat outside.
Today, again I can feel the warm of a family. Thanks to my housemates and their parents! Thanks a lot for cooking for us too! The dishes and porridge were delicious! Because of them, I able to taste home cooking again. Thx God too! Thanks God for arranging all these for me!
During the dinner, there were soup, fry egg, chicken and potatoes. It's tasty! Although my housemate accidentally cooked the rice into porridge for us but I don't mind whether it's rice or porridge. It's still very delicious. My seat was facing the balcony and could see the blue sky. It’s a memorable evening. I will never forget the dinner and blue sky which very different from other days. To me, it's a meaningful and unforgettable dinner. A table of ten of us included my housemates’ parents were enjoying the dinner. We sat and ate together. It was just like a reunion dinner which every1 sitting together and eating on the same table. It's touching. I hope I can able to feel so again. Thx everyone (all my housemates, their parents and my roommate)! I will never able get to feel so without all of you. I will never forget such memorable moment!
I can never feel that kind of feeling (family warm) again ever since my grandma passed away. My family has a lot of problem and it can't be solve already. For very long time, I unable to eat home cooking food as my mum don't cook for family anymore. So, we have to always eat outside.
Today, again I can feel the warm of a family. Thanks to my housemates and their parents! Thanks a lot for cooking for us too! The dishes and porridge were delicious! Because of them, I able to taste home cooking again. Thx God too! Thanks God for arranging all these for me!
During the dinner, there were soup, fry egg, chicken and potatoes. It's tasty! Although my housemate accidentally cooked the rice into porridge for us but I don't mind whether it's rice or porridge. It's still very delicious. My seat was facing the balcony and could see the blue sky. It’s a memorable evening. I will never forget the dinner and blue sky which very different from other days. To me, it's a meaningful and unforgettable dinner. A table of ten of us included my housemates’ parents were enjoying the dinner. We sat and ate together. It was just like a reunion dinner which every1 sitting together and eating on the same table. It's touching. I hope I can able to feel so again. Thx everyone (all my housemates, their parents and my roommate)! I will never able get to feel so without all of you. I will never forget such memorable moment!
~ Bath in My New Bathroom ~
Wow…wow…wow….it was so cool & interesting! It was my first time taking bath in my new house. In other words, I was bathing in my new bathroom for the first time! I will never forget that kind of feelings. I don’t know how to describe it, but it made me feel speechless and yet excited. It might be my unforgettable experience.
As I don’t have any experience in washing my clothes myself, so I just simply rub it by using hand on the floor in the bathroom. But the floor is so dirty. It looks dirtier than my previous house. When I was rubbing my clothes, I saw those yellow colour bubbles flowing out. I was wondering it’s from my clothes or the floor? Haha….I kept felt very ‘geli’ while I was washing my clothes as the floor is so dirty. I spend more than half an hour just to wash two of my T-shirts. Oh my god…it’s so long, right? Actually it was a very good experience for me. Since then, I can feel it’s not easy for my grandma to wash our clothes by using hand. Finally, I’m able to feel how’s the feeling of washing clothes by using hand rub. It’s a hard job. But it considered fun for my first time.
Wow…wow…wow….it was so cool & interesting! It was my first time taking bath in my new house. In other words, I was bathing in my new bathroom for the first time! I will never forget that kind of feelings. I don’t know how to describe it, but it made me feel speechless and yet excited. It might be my unforgettable experience.
As I don’t have any experience in washing my clothes myself, so I just simply rub it by using hand on the floor in the bathroom. But the floor is so dirty. It looks dirtier than my previous house. When I was rubbing my clothes, I saw those yellow colour bubbles flowing out. I was wondering it’s from my clothes or the floor? Haha….I kept felt very ‘geli’ while I was washing my clothes as the floor is so dirty. I spend more than half an hour just to wash two of my T-shirts. Oh my god…it’s so long, right? Actually it was a very good experience for me. Since then, I can feel it’s not easy for my grandma to wash our clothes by using hand. Finally, I’m able to feel how’s the feeling of washing clothes by using hand rub. It’s a hard job. But it considered fun for my first time.
Friday, September 26, 2008
~ Problems ~
Aih…is already 4.30am. Why I am still stay awake? Actually every night about 3.30am I will wake up then until may be 5am only can continue sleep again. What is in my mind? Results! Results! Results! It’s all over my mind. I can’t wait for the results release in next semester. I’m extremely worried of my results ever since my exam had finished.
Every day and night I can’t stop thinking of what kind of results I will get? Passed with flying colours? Or fail either of the subjects? Oh God, please let me pass all the 6 subjects with flying colours. I keep on praying everyday for my results.
Although one of my friends had told me to be confidence in whatever things we do. I always believe that I sure can pass all my subjects with flying colours without fail either of it. Even if so, but I still very worry that what if I fail either of it? I sure can’t accept the fact of failing wither of the subjects. Then, I sure will start to act abnormally and may be even do some crazy stuff which normally I won’t do it. I might be crazy or act abnormally for one week or one month.
My family problems have become more and more serious and my mum is already hopeless, can’t help her anymore. I’m quite disappointed when I back Kuantan for semester break this time. Every thing has change since my dearest grandma had passed away on 29/3/2008. My pity grandpa has nothing to eat. They only let him eat a few pieces of biscuits with plain water. How can an old man survive like this? He has not enough nutrients and getting thinner and thinner. How can they treat him like that? He’s our grandpa or their father or father-in-law. It’s cruel! So, every morning when I am out breakfast with my dad, I will buy some food for my grandpa for his tea break. It is at least much better than see him only eat few pieces of biscuits with plain water.
The noisy and full with laughter house had become a gloomy and quiet house since my grandma passed away. Many of them seldom go back to visit my grandpa. And those family politics had occurred. It’s very sad and heartache to see so. Luckily my grandpa still alive, else, I think I don’t need to go back to my grandparents’ house anymore. I really miss those days when everyone gather and joke together at my grandparents’ house. Although half a year had passed, but I still will burst into tears whenever I miss my grandma so much sometimes. I believe my grandma would not want to see this if she’s still alive.
I have a lot of friends; I also have many good friends. But it doesn’t mean I have a true and best friend. I really don’t know who to tell all my problems. That’s why I choose to keep it in the thousand meters deep bottom of my heart. Firstly, I thought of sharing it with my elder sister, but can’t because she also got her own problems and very busy with her activities and studies. So, I don’t want to add on her burden. In college, I have a friend to share with but I think sometimes I make her feel annoying and irritating. Although she didn’t say so, but can see from the way she acts. Lastly, my last choice is my ex-best friend who is one of my housemates now. I trust him so much but I choose not to tell him after so many things had happened because I scare I will make him feel trying. In conclusion, nobody can tell, right? So, the very last choice is keep it and don’t tell. I really hope we can return to like previously we can talk everything. Then, I don’t need to keep it anymore. I hope you will be my listener and adviser no matter what happen every time. I remember you had told me before that we must look forward, don’t look back to the past, must always improve ourselves. But no matter what, no one can live alone, right? Still need some one to talk to, right? I really hope you can always be my listener and adviser in those coming days.
It’s already 5.30 am. So, I shall stop here and go to sleep now. Hope you will get what I mean in the last few sentences in the second last paragraph. Look forward for the next semester and my results. I hope my results will be passed with flying colours.
Aih…is already 4.30am. Why I am still stay awake? Actually every night about 3.30am I will wake up then until may be 5am only can continue sleep again. What is in my mind? Results! Results! Results! It’s all over my mind. I can’t wait for the results release in next semester. I’m extremely worried of my results ever since my exam had finished.
Every day and night I can’t stop thinking of what kind of results I will get? Passed with flying colours? Or fail either of the subjects? Oh God, please let me pass all the 6 subjects with flying colours. I keep on praying everyday for my results.
Although one of my friends had told me to be confidence in whatever things we do. I always believe that I sure can pass all my subjects with flying colours without fail either of it. Even if so, but I still very worry that what if I fail either of it? I sure can’t accept the fact of failing wither of the subjects. Then, I sure will start to act abnormally and may be even do some crazy stuff which normally I won’t do it. I might be crazy or act abnormally for one week or one month.
My family problems have become more and more serious and my mum is already hopeless, can’t help her anymore. I’m quite disappointed when I back Kuantan for semester break this time. Every thing has change since my dearest grandma had passed away on 29/3/2008. My pity grandpa has nothing to eat. They only let him eat a few pieces of biscuits with plain water. How can an old man survive like this? He has not enough nutrients and getting thinner and thinner. How can they treat him like that? He’s our grandpa or their father or father-in-law. It’s cruel! So, every morning when I am out breakfast with my dad, I will buy some food for my grandpa for his tea break. It is at least much better than see him only eat few pieces of biscuits with plain water.
The noisy and full with laughter house had become a gloomy and quiet house since my grandma passed away. Many of them seldom go back to visit my grandpa. And those family politics had occurred. It’s very sad and heartache to see so. Luckily my grandpa still alive, else, I think I don’t need to go back to my grandparents’ house anymore. I really miss those days when everyone gather and joke together at my grandparents’ house. Although half a year had passed, but I still will burst into tears whenever I miss my grandma so much sometimes. I believe my grandma would not want to see this if she’s still alive.
I have a lot of friends; I also have many good friends. But it doesn’t mean I have a true and best friend. I really don’t know who to tell all my problems. That’s why I choose to keep it in the thousand meters deep bottom of my heart. Firstly, I thought of sharing it with my elder sister, but can’t because she also got her own problems and very busy with her activities and studies. So, I don’t want to add on her burden. In college, I have a friend to share with but I think sometimes I make her feel annoying and irritating. Although she didn’t say so, but can see from the way she acts. Lastly, my last choice is my ex-best friend who is one of my housemates now. I trust him so much but I choose not to tell him after so many things had happened because I scare I will make him feel trying. In conclusion, nobody can tell, right? So, the very last choice is keep it and don’t tell. I really hope we can return to like previously we can talk everything. Then, I don’t need to keep it anymore. I hope you will be my listener and adviser no matter what happen every time. I remember you had told me before that we must look forward, don’t look back to the past, must always improve ourselves. But no matter what, no one can live alone, right? Still need some one to talk to, right? I really hope you can always be my listener and adviser in those coming days.
It’s already 5.30 am. So, I shall stop here and go to sleep now. Hope you will get what I mean in the last few sentences in the second last paragraph. Look forward for the next semester and my results. I hope my results will be passed with flying colours.
~ Commend From my Ex-Roommate (1st roommate) , KS ~
2008年9月14日 星期日
室友篇
艺颖，你要我写一篇关于你。
现在，我写了。
我知道，其实你是在意别人怎么看你的。 是吗？
我觉得这样没有错。我也是这样的人。
其实，只是假假不在意而已。（我会假假偷听别人有没有讲我的坏话。不能告诉别人哦）：）
很羡慕她做人处事的能力。很羡慕她那容易认识朋友的性格。
啊， 你几时看《家好月圆》？ 很喜欢“管家仔”的角色。
你看了记得跟我讲你喜不喜欢你的林峰作的管家仔”角色。
这一篇是我很夜写的，因为明天要回ＫＬ见你啦，很紧张。 嘻，骗你的啦。
因为这样写你会不会觉得很感动，很惊喜叻？
我要回去了，记得。。。。sorry 网上不宜。不写了。
以后， 写一篇打马赛克的给你。> . –
是不是，应该写英文叻？ 现在，我的英文不好。 白涩。
跟你讲一样东西啊。
阿，还有一样东西。 我的室友是一个很好说话的人。可以跟她讲很多东西。
包括我的一些秘密。我相信很多人都喜欢跟她讲东西，讲话吧。可以让人很放心。
阿，我要跟你讲的东西是。。。呃。。。。 那我以后可不可以在MSN上跟你讲话，讲心事阿？ 残了，给我妹看到她会不会吃醋？（妹，因为你常很忙咯！）
我要跟你讲的东西是我去见工了！ 是兼职幼儿园老师，教四岁的小朋友。四岁一定很可爱 ^^ 。 但是没开始， 因为那工交通不方便。
Sorry 在这里很长写了那么多。
你跟我讲过你有个知己。 很羡慕你。真的。
现在，或者开心为什么写布落格，
可以分享一些些东西。 （原谅我写得一块块。）
英文要加强，中文也要加强。
谢谢你跟我分享怎样认识朋友。
还有，要保护自己！
不要那么心软，也不要那么心硬。
不要那么心软，是因为你要不让人容易欺负你。
不要那么心硬，是因为。。。（不知怎么写， 总之你应该知道我讲什么。）
我朋友很少。
离开KL 后，又少了一个朋友在身边。
但无论怎样，“朋友，加油吧！ ”
发表者 lis vespera 位置在： 上午11:46
2008年9月14日 星期日
室友篇
艺颖，你要我写一篇关于你。
现在，我写了。
我知道，其实你是在意别人怎么看你的。 是吗？
我觉得这样没有错。我也是这样的人。
其实，只是假假不在意而已。（我会假假偷听别人有没有讲我的坏话。不能告诉别人哦）：）
很羡慕她做人处事的能力。很羡慕她那容易认识朋友的性格。
啊， 你几时看《家好月圆》？ 很喜欢“管家仔”的角色。
你看了记得跟我讲你喜不喜欢你的林峰作的管家仔”角色。
这一篇是我很夜写的，因为明天要回ＫＬ见你啦，很紧张。 嘻，骗你的啦。
因为这样写你会不会觉得很感动，很惊喜叻？
我要回去了，记得。。。。sorry 网上不宜。不写了。
以后， 写一篇打马赛克的给你。> . –
是不是，应该写英文叻？ 现在，我的英文不好。 白涩。
跟你讲一样东西啊。
阿，还有一样东西。 我的室友是一个很好说话的人。可以跟她讲很多东西。
包括我的一些秘密。我相信很多人都喜欢跟她讲东西，讲话吧。可以让人很放心。
阿，我要跟你讲的东西是。。。呃。。。。 那我以后可不可以在MSN上跟你讲话，讲心事阿？ 残了，给我妹看到她会不会吃醋？（妹，因为你常很忙咯！）
我要跟你讲的东西是我去见工了！ 是兼职幼儿园老师，教四岁的小朋友。四岁一定很可爱 ^^ 。 但是没开始， 因为那工交通不方便。
Sorry 在这里很长写了那么多。
你跟我讲过你有个知己。 很羡慕你。真的。
现在，或者开心为什么写布落格，
可以分享一些些东西。 （原谅我写得一块块。）
英文要加强，中文也要加强。
谢谢你跟我分享怎样认识朋友。
还有，要保护自己！
不要那么心软，也不要那么心硬。
不要那么心软，是因为你要不让人容易欺负你。
不要那么心硬，是因为。。。（不知怎么写， 总之你应该知道我讲什么。）
我朋友很少。
离开KL 后，又少了一个朋友在身边。
但无论怎样，“朋友，加油吧！ ”
发表者 lis vespera 位置在： 上午11:46
Monday, June 02, 2008
~ Can’t Afford to Loose Anything Anymore ~
Firstly, I had lost my dearest grandma who passed away on 29th march 2008. After she passed away, a lot of family politics had exist. My mum and all her brothers and sisters had divided into a few gangs. I believe my grandma doesn’t want to see so. I don’t understand why such things can happen! Why can’t they just get along together as happy as last time. What’s going on? Soon, my mum even don’t allow me and my sister keep on touch with other cousins whom from other gangs. I thought it was my mum’s generation problems and not the next generation problems! We’re innocent! What’s the matter if we keep in touch with other cousins?
I’m in KL. I don’t know what actually happen at my hometown and my mum. Ever since my grandma passed away, my mum has changed a lot. She doesn’t really care of her family. She’s like get addicted with Buddhism. It’s good for sometimes but not until get too addicted till leave the family aside. It’s definitely wrong! She should have always remembered she still has 2 kids which is my younger sister and me. I heard my sister said that my mum always scold her and even not satisfy with her results no matter how good she score or even improve compare to previous exam. My sister even complained to me that my mum seems like treat people’s daughter like her own daughter but treat her own daughter like other people. What’s wrong with her? I also want to know but I can’t as I’m in KL. I want to help my family but it’s a bit hard. I don’t want to see my mum like that. I called her once my results were out and I felt like why she’s like so surprise and a bit like can’t recognize me. I felt strange. How can my mum become like that? I don’t want to loose my mum. Oh mum, please come back and please awake!
Soon, before this semester started, I had lost a best friend of mine. The word “lost” not refers to my best friend had passed away but it refers to my best friend and I are no longer best friend. Not even normal friends too as I don’t trust that friend anymore! But may be just hi-bye friends. For now, I don’t hope to see that friend. I need time for it! Even when I saw that friend in college, I just turned back and walked away. You may say that I’m avoiding but actually not! Is just that I don’t want to see that friend!
Luckily I still have this blog to express everything out. As I’ve no more best friend and no more people I can talk to. So, if anything I just will type out here. If without this blog, I think i'll collapse soon or stress out as I unable to handle all this problems.
Firstly, I had lost my dearest grandma who passed away on 29th march 2008. After she passed away, a lot of family politics had exist. My mum and all her brothers and sisters had divided into a few gangs. I believe my grandma doesn’t want to see so. I don’t understand why such things can happen! Why can’t they just get along together as happy as last time. What’s going on? Soon, my mum even don’t allow me and my sister keep on touch with other cousins whom from other gangs. I thought it was my mum’s generation problems and not the next generation problems! We’re innocent! What’s the matter if we keep in touch with other cousins?
I’m in KL. I don’t know what actually happen at my hometown and my mum. Ever since my grandma passed away, my mum has changed a lot. She doesn’t really care of her family. She’s like get addicted with Buddhism. It’s good for sometimes but not until get too addicted till leave the family aside. It’s definitely wrong! She should have always remembered she still has 2 kids which is my younger sister and me. I heard my sister said that my mum always scold her and even not satisfy with her results no matter how good she score or even improve compare to previous exam. My sister even complained to me that my mum seems like treat people’s daughter like her own daughter but treat her own daughter like other people. What’s wrong with her? I also want to know but I can’t as I’m in KL. I want to help my family but it’s a bit hard. I don’t want to see my mum like that. I called her once my results were out and I felt like why she’s like so surprise and a bit like can’t recognize me. I felt strange. How can my mum become like that? I don’t want to loose my mum. Oh mum, please come back and please awake!
Soon, before this semester started, I had lost a best friend of mine. The word “lost” not refers to my best friend had passed away but it refers to my best friend and I are no longer best friend. Not even normal friends too as I don’t trust that friend anymore! But may be just hi-bye friends. For now, I don’t hope to see that friend. I need time for it! Even when I saw that friend in college, I just turned back and walked away. You may say that I’m avoiding but actually not! Is just that I don’t want to see that friend!
Luckily I still have this blog to express everything out. As I’ve no more best friend and no more people I can talk to. So, if anything I just will type out here. If without this blog, I think i'll collapse soon or stress out as I unable to handle all this problems.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
~ Happy Day ~
Wuhoo! Finally everything is over! Although I might be angry or disappointed sometimes but I fee good after release everything out and finally game over! Yeah!! Yippi!!
I was a bit confused of want to go sing k or go home? But at last I choose to go home to sing k as today is Saturday and is weekend. It’s expensive to sing k on weekend and I wanted to save my money. Although singing karaoke at home myself but still very fun and high! I had sang many songs which with high vocal. Wow…it was damn ‘shuang’! Can express all my feelings and everything out at once! Luckily I was home alone and sang in my room so no one complain. Haha……
After that, I was still not really happy yet. So, I decided to spend some of my money as I had saved a lot of money this week. Then, I went to KLCC BOOK FEST to look for books and bought some Japanese drama series. It was cheap. I love books! I felt so happy to see so many books once I just enter the book fest. Soon, I had forgotten everything and bought things with a happy mood. That’s fun and happy! From this thing, I can prove that I can even leave alone and go out alone without friend. I won’t feel lonely but happy! Actually after that happen, I only realize that I like is the ‘U’ last time and not the ‘U’ know her and started to get influence and change. As a friend, I only can say until here. in the coming future, hope you'll see things clearly. No matter what, today is still my happiest and most enjoyable day! Thanks God for everything! Thanks God!
Wuhoo! Finally everything is over! Although I might be angry or disappointed sometimes but I fee good after release everything out and finally game over! Yeah!! Yippi!!
I was a bit confused of want to go sing k or go home? But at last I choose to go home to sing k as today is Saturday and is weekend. It’s expensive to sing k on weekend and I wanted to save my money. Although singing karaoke at home myself but still very fun and high! I had sang many songs which with high vocal. Wow…it was damn ‘shuang’! Can express all my feelings and everything out at once! Luckily I was home alone and sang in my room so no one complain. Haha……
After that, I was still not really happy yet. So, I decided to spend some of my money as I had saved a lot of money this week. Then, I went to KLCC BOOK FEST to look for books and bought some Japanese drama series. It was cheap. I love books! I felt so happy to see so many books once I just enter the book fest. Soon, I had forgotten everything and bought things with a happy mood. That’s fun and happy! From this thing, I can prove that I can even leave alone and go out alone without friend. I won’t feel lonely but happy! Actually after that happen, I only realize that I like is the ‘U’ last time and not the ‘U’ know her and started to get influence and change. As a friend, I only can say until here. in the coming future, hope you'll see things clearly. No matter what, today is still my happiest and most enjoyable day! Thanks God for everything! Thanks God!
Friday, May 23, 2008
~ Home Alone ~
I’m glad that I’m home alone again! Is very happy of being so as I can sing as loud as I can until the peak of the world! To express everything out at once especially anger will let people feel better after that. From now onwards, me, KHONG YI YIN will be brave! Can stand by myself and accept any challenge! I won’t be afraid of anything anymore! Even facing all the problems by myself or alone!
As long as is my own problem, I’ll settle all by myself and won’t ask for any helps unless is under a team. Furthermore, I won’t tell any friend of my own problem anymore! No friend can be relying on even your very best friend. Even a best friend also can disappoint you!
A friend in need is a friend indeed. How true is this phrase? You try out yourself, and then you’ll know the answer. In my opinion, this phrase is not really true! There’s sometimes you need to help or face any problems by yourself! Especially during urgent or something bad had happened and you need help, there’s no people will help especially your very best and trusted friend! And that’s the time you only can help yourself! I don’t care anymore! So long as I’m happy and that’s all!!
I’m glad that I’m home alone again! Is very happy of being so as I can sing as loud as I can until the peak of the world! To express everything out at once especially anger will let people feel better after that. From now onwards, me, KHONG YI YIN will be brave! Can stand by myself and accept any challenge! I won’t be afraid of anything anymore! Even facing all the problems by myself or alone!
As long as is my own problem, I’ll settle all by myself and won’t ask for any helps unless is under a team. Furthermore, I won’t tell any friend of my own problem anymore! No friend can be relying on even your very best friend. Even a best friend also can disappoint you!
A friend in need is a friend indeed. How true is this phrase? You try out yourself, and then you’ll know the answer. In my opinion, this phrase is not really true! There’s sometimes you need to help or face any problems by yourself! Especially during urgent or something bad had happened and you need help, there’s no people will help especially your very best and trusted friend! And that’s the time you only can help yourself! I don’t care anymore! So long as I’m happy and that’s all!!
Friday, May 16, 2008
~ Because I’m KYY ~
Is a promise! A promise to myself that I’ve to protect myself and be stronger than other girls! And also not to show my weaknesses I front of anyone especially guys! Although sooner or later I’ll be the only girl in my house, but I’m not afraid of it! So what! Actually I thought of shift out long time ago, but I didn’t do so as the main reason is I’m so lucky to stay opposite my lecturer’s house. Furthermore, I quite like the house I’m staying now and I’m happy with it and the rental is also quite cheap. As a result, I won’t shift unless I have to or force to.
If I want to shift, I also won’t ask anyone for help to search for a nice room. It’s my own problem! I’ll settle myself! I don’t need anyone’s help! You may feel weird that why I’m becoming so? Is because of too many times of disappointments until I can’t stand it anymore! I dare not hope or expect for anything anymore. And also I don’t want to be dependable! So, I rather to depend on myself rather than depend on others! Because I’m not like other people can be reliable and got people to protect. I’m not! So, I must be more protective and independent! That’s why I don’t need anyone’s help!
Do you think my friends will visit to my house? No! I don’t think so! Maybe will have a few of them or maybe not even either of them. Will it makes me feel lonely? No, I don’t think so! Maybe will feel that sometimes but I believe that I’ll be able to overcome it! This is all because of I’m KYY and not others!
Is a promise! A promise to myself that I’ve to protect myself and be stronger than other girls! And also not to show my weaknesses I front of anyone especially guys! Although sooner or later I’ll be the only girl in my house, but I’m not afraid of it! So what! Actually I thought of shift out long time ago, but I didn’t do so as the main reason is I’m so lucky to stay opposite my lecturer’s house. Furthermore, I quite like the house I’m staying now and I’m happy with it and the rental is also quite cheap. As a result, I won’t shift unless I have to or force to.
If I want to shift, I also won’t ask anyone for help to search for a nice room. It’s my own problem! I’ll settle myself! I don’t need anyone’s help! You may feel weird that why I’m becoming so? Is because of too many times of disappointments until I can’t stand it anymore! I dare not hope or expect for anything anymore. And also I don’t want to be dependable! So, I rather to depend on myself rather than depend on others! Because I’m not like other people can be reliable and got people to protect. I’m not! So, I must be more protective and independent! That’s why I don’t need anyone’s help!
Do you think my friends will visit to my house? No! I don’t think so! Maybe will have a few of them or maybe not even either of them. Will it makes me feel lonely? No, I don’t think so! Maybe will feel that sometimes but I believe that I’ll be able to overcome it! This is all because of I’m KYY and not others!
Monday, May 12, 2008
~ Mother’s Day ~
11 May is Mother’s Day in year 2008. The celebration this year is a bit different as my grandma had passed away. Previously, when my grandma was still alive, all my uncles, aunts and cousins will return to Kuantan to celebrate Mother’s Day with my grandma. But it won’t be anymore! I just hope that everyone will be back to celebrate Father’s Day with my grandpa.
This year Mother’s Day is just like normal day for me. There’s nothing special. Each family, celebrate themselves and separately. Really miss those days that my grandma still alive and everyone gather together to share and joke together. That’s the happiest moments ever which I won’t forget! I hope will have chance like that again. Even one time also doesn’t matter. So long as everyone is happy. =)
In the afternoon of the Mother’s Day, my cousins, sis and I make ‘wantan’ and cook for my aunt and mum to eat. It’s as an appreciation to our mum. I didn’t even give anything to my mum as present on that day. So, we just cooked ‘wantan’ and noodles to let them eat as lunch. Although was just like that, I could feel that our mum was very happy for it. For them, the most important thing is we able to do well in our studies, score flying colours and be a successful person in the future and never forget them! So, I must do well in my exam so that I won’t disappoint any of them! I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA! I LOVE YOU TOO, MUM! HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!! ^^
11 May is Mother’s Day in year 2008. The celebration this year is a bit different as my grandma had passed away. Previously, when my grandma was still alive, all my uncles, aunts and cousins will return to Kuantan to celebrate Mother’s Day with my grandma. But it won’t be anymore! I just hope that everyone will be back to celebrate Father’s Day with my grandpa.
This year Mother’s Day is just like normal day for me. There’s nothing special. Each family, celebrate themselves and separately. Really miss those days that my grandma still alive and everyone gather together to share and joke together. That’s the happiest moments ever which I won’t forget! I hope will have chance like that again. Even one time also doesn’t matter. So long as everyone is happy. =)
In the afternoon of the Mother’s Day, my cousins, sis and I make ‘wantan’ and cook for my aunt and mum to eat. It’s as an appreciation to our mum. I didn’t even give anything to my mum as present on that day. So, we just cooked ‘wantan’ and noodles to let them eat as lunch. Although was just like that, I could feel that our mum was very happy for it. For them, the most important thing is we able to do well in our studies, score flying colours and be a successful person in the future and never forget them! So, I must do well in my exam so that I won’t disappoint any of them! I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA! I LOVE YOU TOO, MUM! HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!! ^^
Friday, April 25, 2008
~ Acknowledgement ~
You have taught me a lot since the day I know you. I’ve learned many things from you. When first I came to KL, I never thought of learn to cook. And I don’t even know “sharing is caring”. I learned all this from you! After I had started and tried to cook some dishes, the first thing came to my mind was, I must learn to cook delicious ‘tau fu’ for my grandparents especially my grandma after I back to my hometown. Although it’s too late, I unable to cook for my grandma, but at least I do learn how to cook. Although my food taste badly sometimes, but you still will finish it and able to give me some feedback as referent to improve my cooking skill every time.
Before I came to KL, I always thought of leaving my family to some other places will lead to happier life. But I'm wrong! I’ve learned from you that family is always comes first. Because no matter what happen, family members will always be with you and support you. Actually sometimes, I’m quite envy you that you’ve such harmony and happy family. My family become more harmony after I study in KL. Although I don’t know what’s the actual reason but I’m happy to see so. I’ve also learned from you that we’ve the right to voice out our dissatisfaction and to improve the relationships between our family members.
All I want to say is thank you very much! Thanks for everything! You’ve taught me a lot of things. And I apologize that I’m quite annoying sometimes. And sorry for always troubling you. May be I’m not a good friend all this while. I won’t be trouble or ‘fan’ you anymore. Anyway, thanks for everything! You’re always a good friend of mine! =)
You have taught me a lot since the day I know you. I’ve learned many things from you. When first I came to KL, I never thought of learn to cook. And I don’t even know “sharing is caring”. I learned all this from you! After I had started and tried to cook some dishes, the first thing came to my mind was, I must learn to cook delicious ‘tau fu’ for my grandparents especially my grandma after I back to my hometown. Although it’s too late, I unable to cook for my grandma, but at least I do learn how to cook. Although my food taste badly sometimes, but you still will finish it and able to give me some feedback as referent to improve my cooking skill every time.
Before I came to KL, I always thought of leaving my family to some other places will lead to happier life. But I'm wrong! I’ve learned from you that family is always comes first. Because no matter what happen, family members will always be with you and support you. Actually sometimes, I’m quite envy you that you’ve such harmony and happy family. My family become more harmony after I study in KL. Although I don’t know what’s the actual reason but I’m happy to see so. I’ve also learned from you that we’ve the right to voice out our dissatisfaction and to improve the relationships between our family members.
All I want to say is thank you very much! Thanks for everything! You’ve taught me a lot of things. And I apologize that I’m quite annoying sometimes. And sorry for always troubling you. May be I’m not a good friend all this while. I won’t be trouble or ‘fan’ you anymore. Anyway, thanks for everything! You’re always a good friend of mine! =)
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
~ DREAM ~
Normally the 2nd dream will not connect with the 1st dream. But this time my both dream were slightly connected to each other. I dream if my grandma twice! Finally, my dreams come true!
In my 1st dream, I was having a walk with my grandma at a beach at night. Suddenly, we saw a mad dog that running around and chasing people. Everyone was running away for their life. Soon, the mad dog ran towards my grandma and bites her hand. So her hand was injured. Then, I cried. But my mum said, “What for you cry? Your grandma had died”. This is the part where I’m still confused whether that is my grandma or not. But I really saw my grandma’s hand was injured and was bleeding in the dream.
The 2nd dream was located at my grandpa’s house. Some of my cousins, aunts & uncles and I were there. We were having some conversation. After that, don’t know who mentioned about play cards or mahjong. So, my grandma volunteers to teach us to play cards or mahjong. Then, I woke up!
I wonder will I dream my grandma again tonight after I sleep? Will the dream continue with my 2nd dream? But one thing for sure, if I score my exam with flying colors, I’ll sure show it to my grandma! I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA! And I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
Normally the 2nd dream will not connect with the 1st dream. But this time my both dream were slightly connected to each other. I dream if my grandma twice! Finally, my dreams come true!
In my 1st dream, I was having a walk with my grandma at a beach at night. Suddenly, we saw a mad dog that running around and chasing people. Everyone was running away for their life. Soon, the mad dog ran towards my grandma and bites her hand. So her hand was injured. Then, I cried. But my mum said, “What for you cry? Your grandma had died”. This is the part where I’m still confused whether that is my grandma or not. But I really saw my grandma’s hand was injured and was bleeding in the dream.
The 2nd dream was located at my grandpa’s house. Some of my cousins, aunts & uncles and I were there. We were having some conversation. After that, don’t know who mentioned about play cards or mahjong. So, my grandma volunteers to teach us to play cards or mahjong. Then, I woke up!
I wonder will I dream my grandma again tonight after I sleep? Will the dream continue with my 2nd dream? But one thing for sure, if I score my exam with flying colors, I’ll sure show it to my grandma! I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA! And I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
Monday, April 21, 2008
~ My FeeLiNGs ~
Three weeks had passed after my grandma had passed away. The passage “TAU FU” is the only and last passage in my blog that I wrote regarding my grandma a few years ago before she get stroke last year. Although there’s many grammatical error, but I won’t correct it. If I correct it, it may change the feel of the whole passage. The passage is very valuable and priceless for me. I won’t get to write such passage anymore! No more in my life!
The things I worry all the while happened after my grandma passed away. Which was I unable to let go of her. I spend a week to put down and let go of her. On that week, I did many things which I never do before and was like another me. I cried the whole day during the funeral and I even will get emotion whenever mentioned about my grandma. Many things had happened when I was not in college although only for two days. On Friday, I felt very lost after my class at 4p.m. I didn’t even know where to go. Then I walked to the college bus stop and sat there for some time. After that, I decided to go to watch movie alone. My first thought was watched comedy so that I can laugh. Soon, I watched two movies continuously. All those never happen in my life before!
On Saturday was my grandma’s 7th day. I purposely drunk myself so that I’m able to dream my grandma and to forget all those unhappy stuffs. I really did so but I don’t know whether I was drunk or not. My friends also shocked to hear so. After that day, I started to accept the fact and let go of my grandma. But I hate every Saturday 2.++ am which is the time my grandma passed away. It will be my 2nd unforgettable memory in my life. It’s hard to forget that moment. To be honest, I still will cry every Saturday 2.++ am once it refresh back in my mind. I really miss my grandma so much!
After I studied in KL, I seldom called back. The last time I talked to my grandma on phone was the mid of my first semester before she get stroke on September 2007. Actually I planned to cook for her during my break in 1st semester. But it was too late! She get stroke in a sudden and many things had started to change. So, just do whatever you feel like doing before it’s too late! And appreciate every moment you’re having now! You may not know what will happen in the next second! Enjoy your life and always be happy! After all, I’ll appreciate my every moment with my grandpa and everyone now.
Three weeks had passed after my grandma had passed away. The passage “TAU FU” is the only and last passage in my blog that I wrote regarding my grandma a few years ago before she get stroke last year. Although there’s many grammatical error, but I won’t correct it. If I correct it, it may change the feel of the whole passage. The passage is very valuable and priceless for me. I won’t get to write such passage anymore! No more in my life!
The things I worry all the while happened after my grandma passed away. Which was I unable to let go of her. I spend a week to put down and let go of her. On that week, I did many things which I never do before and was like another me. I cried the whole day during the funeral and I even will get emotion whenever mentioned about my grandma. Many things had happened when I was not in college although only for two days. On Friday, I felt very lost after my class at 4p.m. I didn’t even know where to go. Then I walked to the college bus stop and sat there for some time. After that, I decided to go to watch movie alone. My first thought was watched comedy so that I can laugh. Soon, I watched two movies continuously. All those never happen in my life before!
On Saturday was my grandma’s 7th day. I purposely drunk myself so that I’m able to dream my grandma and to forget all those unhappy stuffs. I really did so but I don’t know whether I was drunk or not. My friends also shocked to hear so. After that day, I started to accept the fact and let go of my grandma. But I hate every Saturday 2.++ am which is the time my grandma passed away. It will be my 2nd unforgettable memory in my life. It’s hard to forget that moment. To be honest, I still will cry every Saturday 2.++ am once it refresh back in my mind. I really miss my grandma so much!
After I studied in KL, I seldom called back. The last time I talked to my grandma on phone was the mid of my first semester before she get stroke on September 2007. Actually I planned to cook for her during my break in 1st semester. But it was too late! She get stroke in a sudden and many things had started to change. So, just do whatever you feel like doing before it’s too late! And appreciate every moment you’re having now! You may not know what will happen in the next second! Enjoy your life and always be happy! After all, I’ll appreciate my every moment with my grandpa and everyone now.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
~ LasT WeeK's ToDaY ~
Last week’s today brought many changes. I still remember my cousins and I were staying awake at the living room. Because was our turn (every Friday night) to take care of my grandma. I was too sleepy so I went into the room to sleep at 2am. But two of my cousins still watching “Flood” at the living room. Once my cousin brother didn’t hear any sound from my grandma, he went to see awhile but she’s still breathing. Later, my aunty came down to see, she noticed that my grandma heart beat had stopped.
Suddenly, I was woken up by my cousin sister at around 2.30am. I was quite blur at that time and didn’t know what’s happening. So, I just woke up and walked out to the living room. Then, my aunt suddenly asked me to touch my grandma’s chest to make sure that my grandma’s heart beat had stopped. I put my hand on her chest and I really can’t feel anything which means her heart beat had stopped and died peacefully. That’s the moment many things started to change. Then, everyone started to pray for my grandma by sitting around her. We prayed 8 hours continuously and we’re not allowed to touch her in between the 8 hours.
At first, I’m still able to control my feeling but sooner or later I still burst into tears. I refresh back everything about my grandma and my tears kept like a water pipe non-stop flow out the water. Actually I was told not to cry in front of my grandma because scare that she’ll unable to let go us and go peacefully. My grandpa didn’t even know my grandma had passed away. We only told him after the 8 hours pray because scare he’ll touch my grandma after tell him. He’s so sad and angry and kept scolding us why don’t we tell him earlier. My uncles console him. He cried and went into the living room to touch my grandma before other people make up for my grandma and cover her with a cloth. After that, she was carried out and put it into a coffin and the funeral held at outside the house for 5 days.
Last week’s today brought many changes. I still remember my cousins and I were staying awake at the living room. Because was our turn (every Friday night) to take care of my grandma. I was too sleepy so I went into the room to sleep at 2am. But two of my cousins still watching “Flood” at the living room. Once my cousin brother didn’t hear any sound from my grandma, he went to see awhile but she’s still breathing. Later, my aunty came down to see, she noticed that my grandma heart beat had stopped.
Suddenly, I was woken up by my cousin sister at around 2.30am. I was quite blur at that time and didn’t know what’s happening. So, I just woke up and walked out to the living room. Then, my aunt suddenly asked me to touch my grandma’s chest to make sure that my grandma’s heart beat had stopped. I put my hand on her chest and I really can’t feel anything which means her heart beat had stopped and died peacefully. That’s the moment many things started to change. Then, everyone started to pray for my grandma by sitting around her. We prayed 8 hours continuously and we’re not allowed to touch her in between the 8 hours.
At first, I’m still able to control my feeling but sooner or later I still burst into tears. I refresh back everything about my grandma and my tears kept like a water pipe non-stop flow out the water. Actually I was told not to cry in front of my grandma because scare that she’ll unable to let go us and go peacefully. My grandpa didn’t even know my grandma had passed away. We only told him after the 8 hours pray because scare he’ll touch my grandma after tell him. He’s so sad and angry and kept scolding us why don’t we tell him earlier. My uncles console him. He cried and went into the living room to touch my grandma before other people make up for my grandma and cover her with a cloth. After that, she was carried out and put it into a coffin and the funeral held at outside the house for 5 days.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
~ EnD a FrIEndShIP ~
Have you ever think of ending a friendship with anyone? To be honest, I did think of it before. It’s very stupid for me to think so. Furthermore, I even thought of I’ll be more happy if I end the friendship with my friend. But I might be loosing 2 friends at once if I do so. I’m so selfish and never think of what they think. That’s not me! Oh my god, I must be crazy and out of my mind!
What makes me think of ending the friendship? It may be because there’s something that I still can’t accept it. May be I can accept it when time passes. But I think it might take a very long time for me to accept it. I understand that we had gone through many things before. I appreciate it so much! May be you all may think that I’m ‘small gas’. But have you all thought of it deeply by standing at my side. Then, you all will know how I feel of the upset and disappointment. I don’t think I’ll continue to type this passage anymore because it may causes some troubles or conflicts if I continue it. I don’t hope to see so happen!
Actually is extremely hard to end a friendship with anyone especially your good friend. May be I won’t ask for help or anything anymore. I’ll always try my best to help myself. I’ll protect myself from getting sad and hurt. Because I want to be the cheerful me and no longer sad anymore. My tears is going to dry up if I keep crying everyday and is just like ‘one liter of tears’. Because I’ve so many problems in this semester that causes the tears can’t stop flowing.
Do you think that I want to be so? No! I was affected by the surrounding, by it happens around me every moment. Disappointed and sadness are also apart of it that are also affecting me. May be one day you all may found out that I’m no longer that person you all anymore.
Have you ever think of ending a friendship with anyone? To be honest, I did think of it before. It’s very stupid for me to think so. Furthermore, I even thought of I’ll be more happy if I end the friendship with my friend. But I might be loosing 2 friends at once if I do so. I’m so selfish and never think of what they think. That’s not me! Oh my god, I must be crazy and out of my mind!
What makes me think of ending the friendship? It may be because there’s something that I still can’t accept it. May be I can accept it when time passes. But I think it might take a very long time for me to accept it. I understand that we had gone through many things before. I appreciate it so much! May be you all may think that I’m ‘small gas’. But have you all thought of it deeply by standing at my side. Then, you all will know how I feel of the upset and disappointment. I don’t think I’ll continue to type this passage anymore because it may causes some troubles or conflicts if I continue it. I don’t hope to see so happen!
Actually is extremely hard to end a friendship with anyone especially your good friend. May be I won’t ask for help or anything anymore. I’ll always try my best to help myself. I’ll protect myself from getting sad and hurt. Because I want to be the cheerful me and no longer sad anymore. My tears is going to dry up if I keep crying everyday and is just like ‘one liter of tears’. Because I’ve so many problems in this semester that causes the tears can’t stop flowing.
Do you think that I want to be so? No! I was affected by the surrounding, by it happens around me every moment. Disappointed and sadness are also apart of it that are also affecting me. May be one day you all may found out that I’m no longer that person you all anymore.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
~ SuRRenDeR ~
Finally, I loose! I loose to myself! I surrender! I always thought that I can live alone but really can’t. For people like me, sure won’t feel lonely because I always make friends everywhere. But when I feel sad and down that time, there’s no one to console me, not even one of them. When I really need help or a friend to accompany me or console me, but no! No one will! I always thought that I’m a very tough girl that can face all the problems and settle everything just by my own because I don’t want others to worry or trouble others. To be honest, sometimes is really very tiring being so tough.
Oh God, please bring her along with you to heaven. Please let her leave peacefully and beautifully. That’s what my grandma hopes for. Pleas don’t let her suffer anymore. When she’s suffering, not only she feels the pain but everyone around her too. I believe that I sure will cry when she leaves but I willing to let her go. I don’t want to see her suffer anymore.
Don’t worry grandma! Even if nobody always beside me to console me after you leaves, I believe I sure can overcome it by myself. Although is hard and it needs time, but time will rove everything. So, you may go peacefully anytime. I love you forever!
Finally, I loose! I loose to myself! I surrender! I always thought that I can live alone but really can’t. For people like me, sure won’t feel lonely because I always make friends everywhere. But when I feel sad and down that time, there’s no one to console me, not even one of them. When I really need help or a friend to accompany me or console me, but no! No one will! I always thought that I’m a very tough girl that can face all the problems and settle everything just by my own because I don’t want others to worry or trouble others. To be honest, sometimes is really very tiring being so tough.
Oh God, please bring her along with you to heaven. Please let her leave peacefully and beautifully. That’s what my grandma hopes for. Pleas don’t let her suffer anymore. When she’s suffering, not only she feels the pain but everyone around her too. I believe that I sure will cry when she leaves but I willing to let her go. I don’t want to see her suffer anymore.
Don’t worry grandma! Even if nobody always beside me to console me after you leaves, I believe I sure can overcome it by myself. Although is hard and it needs time, but time will rove everything. So, you may go peacefully anytime. I love you forever!
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
~ The First Day of School and my Results ~
Actually there’s nothing special with my first day of school. I was shocked to hear the news this early in the morning. There were 85% of students fail their FOA. How could it be? We’re accounting students and so many of them fail? Oh my god! From that moment onwards, I can’t really concentrate in my lecture. Another reason was also because I was having heavy flu. Since then, I’m prepared and ready to see any of the subject fail.
After reached home, I was so nervous and can’t wait to check for my results. I was so impatient! May be because there’re many people log into the website to check their results, so it’s hard to log in to the web page. I tried for a few times only get to log in. My results are bad although I pass all the subjects. To be honest, I quite satisfy with my results and I know what causes me can’t get A. The results are worse than the previous results. My mum was so disappointed and sad cause of I didn’t get any A.
I’m not a genius or intelligent person. So, I must work many times harder than other people to get A. It’s not an easy job. Now only I realize that I always study so hard and aim so high not only for myself but main for my parents and relatives. I don’t want to disappoint them and I don’t want to look down by other people. From an active yi yin become a passive yi yin. By staying at home study and only go out once in a blue moon.
What’s happening? I really have no idea. Aih……
Actually there’s nothing special with my first day of school. I was shocked to hear the news this early in the morning. There were 85% of students fail their FOA. How could it be? We’re accounting students and so many of them fail? Oh my god! From that moment onwards, I can’t really concentrate in my lecture. Another reason was also because I was having heavy flu. Since then, I’m prepared and ready to see any of the subject fail.
After reached home, I was so nervous and can’t wait to check for my results. I was so impatient! May be because there’re many people log into the website to check their results, so it’s hard to log in to the web page. I tried for a few times only get to log in. My results are bad although I pass all the subjects. To be honest, I quite satisfy with my results and I know what causes me can’t get A. The results are worse than the previous results. My mum was so disappointed and sad cause of I didn’t get any A.
I’m not a genius or intelligent person. So, I must work many times harder than other people to get A. It’s not an easy job. Now only I realize that I always study so hard and aim so high not only for myself but main for my parents and relatives. I don’t want to disappoint them and I don’t want to look down by other people. From an active yi yin become a passive yi yin. By staying at home study and only go out once in a blue moon.
What’s happening? I really have no idea. Aih……
Friday, February 29, 2008
~ ThInK NiCeLY BeFoRE ReAcT ~
Hey, don’t think that I’m a good person. Sometimes, I might be bad too. Now only I know one of my friend hate and angry with me so much! What I did? He said caused of I hurt him. Did I hurt him?
Actually it happened 2 years ago when I was form 5 and after my SPM. My friend like me and one day he proposed to me. But I rejected him by explained clearly to him that I put study first and I don’t want to think of other things. It’s because study is very important to me and I like it so much. Furthermore, I apologize that I really don’t have any feelings on you. May be all these words did hurt his feelings so much. From that onwards, he hates and angry with me so much!
If you really don’t like that person, I think that you should tell him/her clearly and settle it as soon as possible without dragging it. The longer u drag, he/she will like you more and once you tell the truth, you will hurt him/her feelings more. But you must always remember, if can, you try not to hurt his/her feelings when you say out your thoughts. Think properly before you react or else you will be regret. Although sometimes you might loose a friend after you tell the truth but no matter what, it’s better than letting people misunderstand and adding his/her likeness on you. Then, you will end up with hurting his/her feelings more! Care of people’s feelings and be honest in this kind of things towards everyone!
Hey, don’t think that I’m a good person. Sometimes, I might be bad too. Now only I know one of my friend hate and angry with me so much! What I did? He said caused of I hurt him. Did I hurt him?
Actually it happened 2 years ago when I was form 5 and after my SPM. My friend like me and one day he proposed to me. But I rejected him by explained clearly to him that I put study first and I don’t want to think of other things. It’s because study is very important to me and I like it so much. Furthermore, I apologize that I really don’t have any feelings on you. May be all these words did hurt his feelings so much. From that onwards, he hates and angry with me so much!
If you really don’t like that person, I think that you should tell him/her clearly and settle it as soon as possible without dragging it. The longer u drag, he/she will like you more and once you tell the truth, you will hurt him/her feelings more. But you must always remember, if can, you try not to hurt his/her feelings when you say out your thoughts. Think properly before you react or else you will be regret. Although sometimes you might loose a friend after you tell the truth but no matter what, it’s better than letting people misunderstand and adding his/her likeness on you. Then, you will end up with hurting his/her feelings more! Care of people’s feelings and be honest in this kind of things towards everyone!
Monday, February 25, 2008
~ SAD ~
Suddenly, I feel very down and moody. Wuwuwu…. I don’t want to go back to KL for school reopen on next week. I’ve no idea why I feel so. May be because I unable to put down or let go of something such as my grandparents, family and friends. I think the most that I can’t put down is my grandma. I really very scare the next time I back, I already can’t see my grandma. Honestly, I hope that she can leave earlier to heaven or another more wonderful place so that she has no longer suffered here.
Every time when I heard she screams, I feel very heartache. The louder she screams, the more I feel heartache. Furthermore, she screams because of pain especially when my mum or my uncle is helping her to wash and clean up her wounds. That’s why they will only do so when she’s sleeping. So, when she’s awake and screaming, I’ll stand by her side and tell her to sleep so that she can’t feel the pain after she sleeps soundly.
I don’t know why I’m afraid of loosing someone I love and care especially any of my family members. If my grandma pass away, I really scare that I can’t accept and face it. I don’t know what to do and how to curb and face it.
Anyway, I sure will return to KL when school reopens. I’ll study hard to pass and score my results with flying colours in this coming semester. That is also everyone hope to see and I don’t want to disappoint anyone of them.
Suddenly, I feel very down and moody. Wuwuwu…. I don’t want to go back to KL for school reopen on next week. I’ve no idea why I feel so. May be because I unable to put down or let go of something such as my grandparents, family and friends. I think the most that I can’t put down is my grandma. I really very scare the next time I back, I already can’t see my grandma. Honestly, I hope that she can leave earlier to heaven or another more wonderful place so that she has no longer suffered here.
Every time when I heard she screams, I feel very heartache. The louder she screams, the more I feel heartache. Furthermore, she screams because of pain especially when my mum or my uncle is helping her to wash and clean up her wounds. That’s why they will only do so when she’s sleeping. So, when she’s awake and screaming, I’ll stand by her side and tell her to sleep so that she can’t feel the pain after she sleeps soundly.
I don’t know why I’m afraid of loosing someone I love and care especially any of my family members. If my grandma pass away, I really scare that I can’t accept and face it. I don’t know what to do and how to curb and face it.
Anyway, I sure will return to KL when school reopens. I’ll study hard to pass and score my results with flying colours in this coming semester. That is also everyone hope to see and I don’t want to disappoint anyone of them.
Monday, February 18, 2008
~ My HoLiDaY ~
Many people must be wondering how I spend my holiday. Ok, let me share it with everyone in my blog. Actually there’s nothing special with my holiday. I spend most of my time at my grandparents’ house to help my mother and aunts. I help them to take care of my grandmother as the rest goes to school and work. While taking care of my grandparents, I also can do my own things such as blogging and watch drama.
Sometimes, if my uncle is here then my mum and I will go out for breakfast together with another aunt. Because of everyone has to take turn to stay awake every night to take care of my grandma, so mine is on Thursday, Friday and Sunday night. Although it was tiring and I’ve not enough sleep, but I’m the most free as I’m not schooling so I can help them to lighten their burden. I really look like a panda and I admit that my look during this holiday is much worse than during exam period. My eyes look tired and sleepy and could hardly open sometimes when I go out ‘yam cha’ with my friends. But I’m happy that I can do all this for my grandparents. I’m happy to take care of them.
Due to Chinese New Year, so my family and I went back to Seremban which is my dad’s hometown for 4 days 3 nights (2nd until the 5th day of CNY). It was the longest period we spent there since I was born. Normally we only back there for 3 days 2 nights and never 4 days 3 nights before. We went to Port Dickson and also Dong Zen which is a well-known temple located at Jenjarom, Banting. We went twice to the temple at night and evening. It was huge and beautiful! It full with lantern, light and also various kinds beautiful flowers! There’s nothing special at Port Dickson. It’s just a small place. But it has a beautiful beach which also can organize many water activities at there. I bought a t-shirt and a short pan while my sis bought a t-shirt and a cap. On the other hand, my dad only bought a short pan and my mum didn’t buy anything at PD. The design of the hotels there are a bit look like overseas’ building. It’s quite unique.
This CNY, I also went to ‘bai nian’ with my teachers and friends. But I unable to go all as there’re too many of them. Besides that, I also went out ‘yam cha’ with my friend if I’m free. I’ve to go no matter how tired I am because we only gather once in blue moon. We appreciate all the happy and sweet moment we get together. Our table is always the noisiest table. We laugh and talk very loud and sometimes even over excited. Wakaka……really miss those crazy days in primary and secondary school! I’ll visit my teachers in school soon.
I think that’s all for my holidays! I enjoy it so much! It’s much more meaningful than my school holidays last time. It passes so fast and half month had gone! I can’t wait for school reopen and starts with the 3rd semester. I miss study so much! May be because the more I grow the more I like to study. I also don’t know why. Haha…….
Many people must be wondering how I spend my holiday. Ok, let me share it with everyone in my blog. Actually there’s nothing special with my holiday. I spend most of my time at my grandparents’ house to help my mother and aunts. I help them to take care of my grandmother as the rest goes to school and work. While taking care of my grandparents, I also can do my own things such as blogging and watch drama.
Sometimes, if my uncle is here then my mum and I will go out for breakfast together with another aunt. Because of everyone has to take turn to stay awake every night to take care of my grandma, so mine is on Thursday, Friday and Sunday night. Although it was tiring and I’ve not enough sleep, but I’m the most free as I’m not schooling so I can help them to lighten their burden. I really look like a panda and I admit that my look during this holiday is much worse than during exam period. My eyes look tired and sleepy and could hardly open sometimes when I go out ‘yam cha’ with my friends. But I’m happy that I can do all this for my grandparents. I’m happy to take care of them.
Due to Chinese New Year, so my family and I went back to Seremban which is my dad’s hometown for 4 days 3 nights (2nd until the 5th day of CNY). It was the longest period we spent there since I was born. Normally we only back there for 3 days 2 nights and never 4 days 3 nights before. We went to Port Dickson and also Dong Zen which is a well-known temple located at Jenjarom, Banting. We went twice to the temple at night and evening. It was huge and beautiful! It full with lantern, light and also various kinds beautiful flowers! There’s nothing special at Port Dickson. It’s just a small place. But it has a beautiful beach which also can organize many water activities at there. I bought a t-shirt and a short pan while my sis bought a t-shirt and a cap. On the other hand, my dad only bought a short pan and my mum didn’t buy anything at PD. The design of the hotels there are a bit look like overseas’ building. It’s quite unique.
This CNY, I also went to ‘bai nian’ with my teachers and friends. But I unable to go all as there’re too many of them. Besides that, I also went out ‘yam cha’ with my friend if I’m free. I’ve to go no matter how tired I am because we only gather once in blue moon. We appreciate all the happy and sweet moment we get together. Our table is always the noisiest table. We laugh and talk very loud and sometimes even over excited. Wakaka……really miss those crazy days in primary and secondary school! I’ll visit my teachers in school soon.
I think that’s all for my holidays! I enjoy it so much! It’s much more meaningful than my school holidays last time. It passes so fast and half month had gone! I can’t wait for school reopen and starts with the 3rd semester. I miss study so much! May be because the more I grow the more I like to study. I also don’t know why. Haha…….
Sunday, February 17, 2008
~ PiTY LiTTLe PuPPy ~
this is the cute little puppy!
Bang! There it left us and goes to heaven! “It” is refers to a cute and playful little puppy which crashed by a car and died after a few minutes just now. Some of us had expected this will happened one day as the puppy likes to follow anyone or cars until the road side then only it’ll ran back to my grandparents’ house again. Sometimes, it even followed us to cross the busy road in front of my grandparents’ house without notice it. for example, this morning when my mum and I were crossing road to the opposite shop lots to wait for my aunt and it followed us across the road until the double line in the middle of the road and in a sudden it turned back and returned back to the house. It scared us! Luckily, nothing happened at that moment.
The puppy was adapted by my cousin sister 3 weeks ago. How it came? Actually, this puppy was outside my uncle’s house for a night already. The next morning when my cousin brother and his friends were cycling around his neighborhood, the puppy kept following them. Then, my cousin returned to his home and asked her mum, “what to do with the dog?” Her mum told him to send it over to my grandparents’ house for my cousin sister as she likes dog so much! So, the puppy followed at the back of my cousin while he’s cycling and lead it the way to my grandparents’ house. There’s the day my cousin sister started to adapt it and she named it “Baby”. She loves it so much! She even bath together with it in the bathroom sometimes, carries it and plays with it everyday.
I was in the bathroom. Suddenly, I heard someone was crying. I wonder what’s happening. So, I wore my clothes very fast and rushed out from the bathroom. Then, only I knew that the puppy had passed away. My cousin sister burst into tears and she was so sad and had cried for a few hours. When her parents back, they were shocked to see their own daughter cried till so loud. After they make things clear, then my uncle dig a big and deep hole in one of the part of the house and my aunt helped to carry the dog to the place and buried it. It was not scary either although was at night. Quite a number of us send it the last journey. My sis also cried.
After that, my dad only told me that actually the dog was following him across the road without his notices, and then it ran back to the roadside again. After my dad entered the shop, he heard a loud sound, bang! The sound was came from the roadside, he ran out the shop immediately and he saw a car drove away with a high speed and the puppy was lying on the roadside outside the house. Luckily there’s no more car on the road. Without hesitation, my dad quickly ran across the road and carried the dog back to the house before any car went over it. At first, the puppy was still moving. But after a few minutes, it stopped breathing and died. Although I not really like the puppy as I afraid of dog and this playful puppy always wants to run towards me and make me scream and shout for help. But I also feel sad and sorry to hear so. Hey doggy, wish you will live happily in heaven!
Life is short! Nobody knows what will happen in the next second. So, appreciate and be happy with everything you’re having now before it’s too late!
~ HaPPy BiRthDaY GrAnDPa ~
Yummy~ It's my grandpa's birthday cake from secret recipe!
my grandpa and his birthday cake.....Happy Birthday,Grandpa!!
There're 9 big candles which means it's my grandpa's 90 years old birthday!
haha....my aunt was helping my grandpa to blow off the candle
Wooow.....finally is time for my grandpa to cut his lovely birthday cake!
But it doesn’t matter because those who in Kuantan celebrated with him. I’m glad to see that he so happy! They bought a cake from secret recipe, fried noodles, fried rice and also the best sate from Satay Zul. I not really know how they celebrate my grandpa’s birthday but I still can briefly describe it.
This time is different than previous years as they only celebrate with grandpa at home. Previously, we celebrated with him in a big room of the hotel call M.S.Garden. We even sing karaoke there. After the dinner, everyone will return to my grandparents’ house to wish my grandpa and take ‘ang pau’ from him. Furthermore, I also sing 2 teow chew songs to my grandpa after reached home. The song I sing are ‘sai gue jo ni gio jo tembikai’ (why watermelon call tembikai?) and ‘ah gong deng sua lai’.
This time they only celebrated at home as my grandma in a bad condition. Early in the morning, everyone who went to my grandparents’ house had to eat noodles and eggs with sweet soup. It’s a teow chew tradition since last time. The soup is tastes sweet. At night, they only ate dinner and sang birthday song. Then, they also got wish and took ‘ang pau’ from my grandpa. Although was just a simple birthday celebration for my grandpa but he already very happy. Everyone also satisfy and very happy! =)
Friday, February 15, 2008
~ PrOuD & ImPreSS~
Hey, you are really a brave girl! I really impress and proud of you! You know what? You get to do many things that other girls can’t or hard to do. It’s so hard for you to get into hot temper. You like to always be yourself! You like to cold joke or joke with your friends! Whenever your friends need your help, you sure will be there for help and always try your best to do so!
Sometimes, you are too kind until some of them bully or take advantage on you. But you also hardly get angry with them and you still will help them. Although sometime I really very angry with them who over act and take advantage on me but no matter what, sometime is my responsibility as printing manager to do so. And sometimes, I think helping friends can bring happiness to them and that is friends are for. Human should help each other when whoever faces problem. You’ll sure very happy after helping someone. When her friends down, she’ll console them and give them some advice and also some humble opinion. She always gives her fully support to her family and friends!
This girl, help everyone with her true heart without hoping or asking for any return from anyone. Sometimes, she’s really mad of those friends who give so many excuses and refuse to help her, then, she chooses to settle it by herself! But she no longer mad of her friends as she thinks that we’re friends forever and it doesn’t matter that you all help or not. As long as everyone happy then anything will do!
She’s easily to forgive a person. However, she hates to live in a problematic family. But she still chooses to forgive her parents for always complaint their problems to her and also making her a middle person between to of them. She forgives them because she thinks that no matter what happen, they still a family. Furthermore, this girl always hopes for a peaceful and happy family. Although can’t really fulfill her wish but she’s trying her best all the time to settle her family’s problems. Sometimes, she able to reduce her parents tempers and makes them laugh again and so everything settles peacefully! She forgive her friends easily too! This shows that this girl likes peaceful so much! Peace!
She remembers there’s once her mother talk bad and step her by using those hurtful sentences and words in front of her younger sister. At that moment, this girl didn’t argue back with her mother but she felt like there’s a sharp knife poke into her heart and was so painful! She thought that how could a mother say her daughter like this, it’s unfair and hurtful! The second day, she told her grandma and her grandma console her and said, “Don’t care what your mother said! The most important is you work hard and prove to her that she’s wrong and you can do it!” The girl felt very touch and warm at that moment as she still has grandmother’s love.
To be honest, her grandma loves her so much since small. When she’s tiny little baby that time, whenever her grandma saw she’s not feeling well and none stop crying, she’ll follow she cry as well. She always cooks her granddaughter’s favorite dishes for her. Of course, her granddaughter loves her too! Actually after her granddaughter went to study in KL, she planed to learn to cook better and once she back, she wants to cook for her grandma. But it’s too late! Before she gets back, her grandma already get stroke and paralyze. In this case, her grandma only can drink milk by pouring the milk bit by bit through the tube. She’s having wound over her whole body. It’s very pain! Every night there’s people to take turn to stay awake the whole night to take care of grandma. She really misses those happy and sweet moments with her grandma. Although she studies in KL but once she’s free or holidays, she’ll sure return home to help her mother to take care of her grandma and also stay awake the whole night for help. Although is very tiring but she’s happy of doing all this too! She rather spends her precious time with her family than other things before it’s too late and she doesn’t want to be regret in the future! The words “Family first” always appears in her mind. And these two words were taught by one her senior. This senior makes her realize that family is always come first and they’re very important to us! Without their support, we can’t able to be success!
This girl doesn’t care much of her outlook because she always thinks that inner beauty is the most important among the whole person! A person who looks pretty or handsome but if he/she doesn’t have inner beauty also no use. Moreover, the most important is a person’s attitude. That’s why she doesn’t care much about her dressing.
Besides, this girl also noob in doing something sometime. Although people think that she’s noob, but she’s happy and know what she’s doing so she doesn’t care of how people treat or look at her. Sometimes, she’s quite blur too! But she’s very serious when she’s studying until forget about her hungriness and also ignore people around her. Haha….finally this is one of her bad habit that also makes her parents worry that she’ll over study!
Although this girl faces a lot of pressure such as stress in study and also family problem but she’s brave and she face it! And every time she gets to overcome it by herself! She’ll never easily give up!
Last but not least, I would like to say that this girl is me! Do you agree?
Hey, you are really a brave girl! I really impress and proud of you! You know what? You get to do many things that other girls can’t or hard to do. It’s so hard for you to get into hot temper. You like to always be yourself! You like to cold joke or joke with your friends! Whenever your friends need your help, you sure will be there for help and always try your best to do so!
Sometimes, you are too kind until some of them bully or take advantage on you. But you also hardly get angry with them and you still will help them. Although sometime I really very angry with them who over act and take advantage on me but no matter what, sometime is my responsibility as printing manager to do so. And sometimes, I think helping friends can bring happiness to them and that is friends are for. Human should help each other when whoever faces problem. You’ll sure very happy after helping someone. When her friends down, she’ll console them and give them some advice and also some humble opinion. She always gives her fully support to her family and friends!
This girl, help everyone with her true heart without hoping or asking for any return from anyone. Sometimes, she’s really mad of those friends who give so many excuses and refuse to help her, then, she chooses to settle it by herself! But she no longer mad of her friends as she thinks that we’re friends forever and it doesn’t matter that you all help or not. As long as everyone happy then anything will do!
She’s easily to forgive a person. However, she hates to live in a problematic family. But she still chooses to forgive her parents for always complaint their problems to her and also making her a middle person between to of them. She forgives them because she thinks that no matter what happen, they still a family. Furthermore, this girl always hopes for a peaceful and happy family. Although can’t really fulfill her wish but she’s trying her best all the time to settle her family’s problems. Sometimes, she able to reduce her parents tempers and makes them laugh again and so everything settles peacefully! She forgive her friends easily too! This shows that this girl likes peaceful so much! Peace!
She remembers there’s once her mother talk bad and step her by using those hurtful sentences and words in front of her younger sister. At that moment, this girl didn’t argue back with her mother but she felt like there’s a sharp knife poke into her heart and was so painful! She thought that how could a mother say her daughter like this, it’s unfair and hurtful! The second day, she told her grandma and her grandma console her and said, “Don’t care what your mother said! The most important is you work hard and prove to her that she’s wrong and you can do it!” The girl felt very touch and warm at that moment as she still has grandmother’s love.
To be honest, her grandma loves her so much since small. When she’s tiny little baby that time, whenever her grandma saw she’s not feeling well and none stop crying, she’ll follow she cry as well. She always cooks her granddaughter’s favorite dishes for her. Of course, her granddaughter loves her too! Actually after her granddaughter went to study in KL, she planed to learn to cook better and once she back, she wants to cook for her grandma. But it’s too late! Before she gets back, her grandma already get stroke and paralyze. In this case, her grandma only can drink milk by pouring the milk bit by bit through the tube. She’s having wound over her whole body. It’s very pain! Every night there’s people to take turn to stay awake the whole night to take care of grandma. She really misses those happy and sweet moments with her grandma. Although she studies in KL but once she’s free or holidays, she’ll sure return home to help her mother to take care of her grandma and also stay awake the whole night for help. Although is very tiring but she’s happy of doing all this too! She rather spends her precious time with her family than other things before it’s too late and she doesn’t want to be regret in the future! The words “Family first” always appears in her mind. And these two words were taught by one her senior. This senior makes her realize that family is always come first and they’re very important to us! Without their support, we can’t able to be success!
This girl doesn’t care much of her outlook because she always thinks that inner beauty is the most important among the whole person! A person who looks pretty or handsome but if he/she doesn’t have inner beauty also no use. Moreover, the most important is a person’s attitude. That’s why she doesn’t care much about her dressing.
Besides, this girl also noob in doing something sometime. Although people think that she’s noob, but she’s happy and know what she’s doing so she doesn’t care of how people treat or look at her. Sometimes, she’s quite blur too! But she’s very serious when she’s studying until forget about her hungriness and also ignore people around her. Haha….finally this is one of her bad habit that also makes her parents worry that she’ll over study!
Although this girl faces a lot of pressure such as stress in study and also family problem but she’s brave and she face it! And every time she gets to overcome it by herself! She’ll never easily give up!
Last but not least, I would like to say that this girl is me! Do you agree?
~ FaCe It ~
Before my sister back from tuition, I was still thinking of want to go for my friend’s birthday party or not. At first, I already set up my mind and didn’t want to go. The reason of I’m not going because I know that they sure will mentioned about him. And I really don’t hope to hear any of my friend mention or ask about him anymore. Because he’s over my mind everyday and I’m controlling myself not to message or even talk to him until he message or talk to me first. To be honest, to let so of someone is extremely hard! But don’t worry, I’m trying my best to do so! At last, I choose to go to the party and I’m not scared anymore! Cause I choose to face it! You can do it, girl! I believe one day you sure able to get rid of all this!
I really don’t know what’s going on among us. I feel like our distance is getting further and further. I don’t understand why all this happen! I thought we still can chat like last time and as good as last time like normal friend. But not anymore! Why? Why? Why?
Can’t you just treat me as normal friend? I know you afraid that I’ll misunderstand. But of course not! I won’t misunderstand! You’re just a friend of mine that I can always talk to and I treat you as my good friend.
Our friendship really have to become worse just because of little thing happen? I don’t mind of sacrificing my happiness or anything just to let everyone happy always. I hope to see smiley face from everybody in every single day. Then, I’ll sure be very happy no matter what happen! Don’t worry! I’ll sure be tough! You happy or sad also the will day like that, so why don’t you choose to be happy everyday, right? So, I choose to be happy and cheerful everyday so that I can brighten everyone with my laughter. That’s me! Yeah! I must do it!
Before my sister back from tuition, I was still thinking of want to go for my friend’s birthday party or not. At first, I already set up my mind and didn’t want to go. The reason of I’m not going because I know that they sure will mentioned about him. And I really don’t hope to hear any of my friend mention or ask about him anymore. Because he’s over my mind everyday and I’m controlling myself not to message or even talk to him until he message or talk to me first. To be honest, to let so of someone is extremely hard! But don’t worry, I’m trying my best to do so! At last, I choose to go to the party and I’m not scared anymore! Cause I choose to face it! You can do it, girl! I believe one day you sure able to get rid of all this!
I really don’t know what’s going on among us. I feel like our distance is getting further and further. I don’t understand why all this happen! I thought we still can chat like last time and as good as last time like normal friend. But not anymore! Why? Why? Why?
Can’t you just treat me as normal friend? I know you afraid that I’ll misunderstand. But of course not! I won’t misunderstand! You’re just a friend of mine that I can always talk to and I treat you as my good friend.
Our friendship really have to become worse just because of little thing happen? I don’t mind of sacrificing my happiness or anything just to let everyone happy always. I hope to see smiley face from everybody in every single day. Then, I’ll sure be very happy no matter what happen! Don’t worry! I’ll sure be tough! You happy or sad also the will day like that, so why don’t you choose to be happy everyday, right? So, I choose to be happy and cheerful everyday so that I can brighten everyone with my laughter. That’s me! Yeah! I must do it!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
~ ArE FRiEnDs ImPoRTanT? ~
Friends are also played important part in our life other than our family. You may make friends with everyone around the world but not everyone get to become your friend. Why? Some people believe that becoming friend is also depends on fate. Are friends important? Of course! You try to ask yourself, “can you live alone without friends and family?” I believe there’ll be at least 80% or more people say no! No one can live alone in this world. It’s because human also afraid of loneliness and bored.
Friends are also about trust. Without trustworthy among friends, conflict such as misunderstand, quarrel or even fight among each other will happen. Moreover, honesty is the key for any relationships. It’s also important between friends. When you tell lie and you drag it and refuse to tell the truth, one day when your friend finds out, things will become worse. All these will cause no longer friendship.
At home, you have your family help and support but you’re out in the society, you’ll need your friend’s help and support. A friend in need is a friend indeed. When you’re sad or down, you’ll hope that there’s someone beside you to console you or when you’ve any problem, you may express it to your friend or ask for their help. A true friend will always beside you whenever you need him/her by consoling you, giving his/her full support to you and also helping you.
Actually helping your friends, not only can bring happiness to them but also yourself too. The moment they appreciate your help and say thanks to you is the happiest moment because you get to help a person that need your help. However, not everything you can help, sometime you can only try your best to console them and be with them when they need you. Although you can’t help much but don’t feel bad for it. It’s because at least you did try your best and do whatever you can and the rest is depends on his/her own will to stand up again.
Everyone sure will experience falls or fail in their life for at least one time. Some of them choose to end their life by commit suicide because they afraid to face it. And don’t get influence by devil! You must always remember there’s always hope! Tomorrow will be better than today! Never mind if you fail once. The most important is you must be brave! Face it and don’t try to avoid from it! Because if you avoid it, you’ll only make yourself suffer and your problem will not solve forever. So, you must keep on trying to find the problem out and solve it! This will be the day you get to stand up again. I believe that not only you will feel proud of yourself for this, people around you will sure feel proud of you too.
Friends are also played important part in our life other than our family. You may make friends with everyone around the world but not everyone get to become your friend. Why? Some people believe that becoming friend is also depends on fate. Are friends important? Of course! You try to ask yourself, “can you live alone without friends and family?” I believe there’ll be at least 80% or more people say no! No one can live alone in this world. It’s because human also afraid of loneliness and bored.
Friends are also about trust. Without trustworthy among friends, conflict such as misunderstand, quarrel or even fight among each other will happen. Moreover, honesty is the key for any relationships. It’s also important between friends. When you tell lie and you drag it and refuse to tell the truth, one day when your friend finds out, things will become worse. All these will cause no longer friendship.
At home, you have your family help and support but you’re out in the society, you’ll need your friend’s help and support. A friend in need is a friend indeed. When you’re sad or down, you’ll hope that there’s someone beside you to console you or when you’ve any problem, you may express it to your friend or ask for their help. A true friend will always beside you whenever you need him/her by consoling you, giving his/her full support to you and also helping you.
Actually helping your friends, not only can bring happiness to them but also yourself too. The moment they appreciate your help and say thanks to you is the happiest moment because you get to help a person that need your help. However, not everything you can help, sometime you can only try your best to console them and be with them when they need you. Although you can’t help much but don’t feel bad for it. It’s because at least you did try your best and do whatever you can and the rest is depends on his/her own will to stand up again.
Everyone sure will experience falls or fail in their life for at least one time. Some of them choose to end their life by commit suicide because they afraid to face it. And don’t get influence by devil! You must always remember there’s always hope! Tomorrow will be better than today! Never mind if you fail once. The most important is you must be brave! Face it and don’t try to avoid from it! Because if you avoid it, you’ll only make yourself suffer and your problem will not solve forever. So, you must keep on trying to find the problem out and solve it! This will be the day you get to stand up again. I believe that not only you will feel proud of yourself for this, people around you will sure feel proud of you too.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
~ ReUNiON DiNNeR ~
dishes ready for reunion dinner
everyone is waiting for dinner!
dishes ready for reunion dinnereveryone is waiting for dinner!
yahoo! Let the dinner begin!
Actually this year is a bit different from previous year as it never happened before. The reunion dinner this year was without my grandmother. To be honest, we were quite sad of it. We had taken some photos of the dishes we ate tonight. There's around 9 or 10 dishes on the table and 26 persons include me. But this year didn't have homemade shark fin and most of the dishes such as duck and chicken were bought from outside. Overall we enjoyed the dinner and it was quite delicious.
After the dinner, I went to my grandmother and felt so heartache and pity to see her like that. I felt like crying when I see her and really can feel that she's suffering. And this year some of my uncles n aunties not going out to 'bai nian' with others as my grandmother like that.
After the dinner, I went to my grandmother and felt so heartache and pity to see her like that. I felt like crying when I see her and really can feel that she's suffering. And this year some of my uncles n aunties not going out to 'bai nian' with others as my grandmother like that.
the Telok Chempedak Beach in Kuantan,Pahang!
playing with cousins and uncle :)
Soon, my uncle brought us to Hyatt Hotel nearby the beach. It really recalled back all our childhood. When we were small, my 3rd uncle and my another uncle like to bring us go to the beach. And the behind seats were filled with 6 or 7 or even 8 children and another 1 or 2 of them sit at the front seat excluded the driver seat. It was fun! The whole gang of us really crazy when we all get together. As time passes, all has grown up. So,the car only can fit in 6 person at the behind seats and 1 person at the front seat. Then, we went to the playground at the hotel and we played swings and also see saw. We were trying to balance the see saw and add more people at both side. My uncle also join us too. It was really fun and happy time together.
my cute & handsome ah gong was waiting for us to collect 'ang pau'
we were lining up to collect the 'ang pau'
Wow! Finally is my turn to take 'ang pau'!
After we back, it was time for us to received angpao from my grandpa. Yeah! We queue up to take the angpao but before that, we must wish our grandpa by saying, "sing jia ju yi" (in teow chiew). wakaka.........
What happen to this dead fly? haha....I've no idea
When clock's strike 12am, we wear new shoes to go out for a walk to 'cai xiao ren'. Because they believe that after doing so then the whole year will not have anyone who do bad or talk bad behind you. It's not working sometime. haha........anyway I wish everyone Happy Rat Year! Enjoy holidays and Chinese New Year!
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
~ BuSY DaY ~
It's a fun, busy and tiring day. Everyone was busy playing their own role. But i was spending my whole morning to watch drama. Then, we only started to work during afternoon after everyone had back from school and it was thier last day of school before Chinese New Year. My cousins and my sis were having fun washing the floor outside as they were playing water too and i was wrapping 'wan tan' for our dinner. On the other hand, my mum washed the kitchen and my aunt clean up stairs. I could hear the laughter and happiness from everyone. Although we were tiring but we're enjoying too. Furthermore, I also moved my plant to a bigger pot.
After that, my sis helped to cook 'wan tan' for us. Again my grandpa went to my grandma and kept asking her, " have you eaten your dinner?" Unfortunately, my grandma couldn't answer him as she can't talk but she did stare at him. My grandparents' relationship really extremely good. Nowadays, it's hardly to see couples like that anymore.
Haha...my little cousin cried after her 'wan tan' was eaten by the naughty dog. Then, she wanted to pour the whole bowl but her sis said nevermind and let her eat. wakaka.....
It's a fun, busy and tiring day. Everyone was busy playing their own role. But i was spending my whole morning to watch drama. Then, we only started to work during afternoon after everyone had back from school and it was thier last day of school before Chinese New Year. My cousins and my sis were having fun washing the floor outside as they were playing water too and i was wrapping 'wan tan' for our dinner. On the other hand, my mum washed the kitchen and my aunt clean up stairs. I could hear the laughter and happiness from everyone. Although we were tiring but we're enjoying too. Furthermore, I also moved my plant to a bigger pot.
After that, my sis helped to cook 'wan tan' for us. Again my grandpa went to my grandma and kept asking her, " have you eaten your dinner?" Unfortunately, my grandma couldn't answer him as she can't talk but she did stare at him. My grandparents' relationship really extremely good. Nowadays, it's hardly to see couples like that anymore.
Haha...my little cousin cried after her 'wan tan' was eaten by the naughty dog. Then, she wanted to pour the whole bowl but her sis said nevermind and let her eat. wakaka.....
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
~ PaIN & HeaRTacHe~
This morning, I was called by my mother to lend my hand to her and a nurse to change urine tube for my grandmother. All I did is just hold the torchlight and I aim the light to my grandma’s private part. Oh my god! I don’t know why I feel so dizzy and disgusting suddenly of watching it. Actually the nurse was poking the urine tube into my grandma’s private part. It was so pain. And I really impress the nurse. At first, the nurse wore handgloves then she pulled my grandma's private part wider so that she could see the hole clearly and poke the urine tube into it.I don’t know how they able to do such thing. I just hold the torchlight and closed my eyes as I couldn’t stand it.
Although my grandma had no feeling but I could feel the pain of hers. It’s like something sharp poke into your private part. The nurse kept poking the urine tube into my grandma’s private part and pulled out again as she poked into the wrong part until she saw the urine flow from the tube. I really feel very heartache of seeing that. And my grandma is really suffering.
I hope she can go earlier so that she doesn’t need to suffer for so long. Cause she also won’t want to be like that and that is not what she hopes for. Actually she told us before that she just hope to go peacefully. So, I always pray that she won’t suffer for so long and can leave this world earlier.
This morning, I was called by my mother to lend my hand to her and a nurse to change urine tube for my grandmother. All I did is just hold the torchlight and I aim the light to my grandma’s private part. Oh my god! I don’t know why I feel so dizzy and disgusting suddenly of watching it. Actually the nurse was poking the urine tube into my grandma’s private part. It was so pain. And I really impress the nurse. At first, the nurse wore handgloves then she pulled my grandma's private part wider so that she could see the hole clearly and poke the urine tube into it.I don’t know how they able to do such thing. I just hold the torchlight and closed my eyes as I couldn’t stand it.
Although my grandma had no feeling but I could feel the pain of hers. It’s like something sharp poke into your private part. The nurse kept poking the urine tube into my grandma’s private part and pulled out again as she poked into the wrong part until she saw the urine flow from the tube. I really feel very heartache of seeing that. And my grandma is really suffering.
I hope she can go earlier so that she doesn’t need to suffer for so long. Cause she also won’t want to be like that and that is not what she hopes for. Actually she told us before that she just hope to go peacefully. So, I always pray that she won’t suffer for so long and can leave this world earlier.
Monday, February 04, 2008
~ Beware of people around you ~
Who we’ve to beware of? Friends or family members? Of course anyone will do. Why? It’s because people around you even your friends and relatives, they may also talk about your bad and even betray you. As a results, the best is trust yourself and not others!
Sometimes, they even send to wrong message to others and cause many troubles. It may cause misunderstanding among your friends and will quarrel among each other. It’s very serious as sometime will affect the friendships and even lose your best friend.
When it happen? It happened especially when there’s appearance of third party. This third party will sometime misunderstand cause of he or she doesn’t really know what’s happening between two of you. Moreover, it happen also because the person involve send the wrong message to the third party and cause all the misunderstanding and make the whole situation worse.
To be honest, I really hate that kind of people. I don’t understand why they want to do so since I didn’t do anything wrong to them. In my opinion, no matter what happen, the best way to settle is just settle between two of them without involve any third party.
Honesty is the key of any relationship. Similarly, trust is also the key of any relationship. If there’s no trust between two parties, it means there’s meaningless of becoming friends anymore. In another words, we should trust our friends and family. I believe that there’s always hope! So, don’t give up easily. For example, if you didn’t do anything wrong and nobody trust you, then, you should think of some way to prove to everyone that you are right and is not your fault. You should explain to them. And do something so that they trust you again. Action is always better than do nothing.
Actually do you know that you really disappoint me? You rather trust a person that you just knew a month ago than trusting me since that you’ve know me more than half a year. What kind of people is this? Lack of trust between us. In addition, she also always tell you the wrong thing and causes many of misunderstand among us. I really don’t understand what’s the purpose of she doing so. Forgive and forget. As long as I’m not that kind of person, I don’t mind what you think or say. But the whole world can misunderstand me except for you (N) and my family! You all shouldn’t misunderstand me! It’s just a matter of trust among people. So, to avoid from all this happen again, I'll be more aware of people around me.
If left me alone in the house which means everyone already return to their hometown, will anyone accompany me? Of course the actual answer is NO! NO! NO! Likewise, when I need help, will anyone help me? The answer is also NO! NO! NO! So, you better don’t hope for anything as it’s hopeless! Why are all this happened on me? Why me? I also don’t know the reasons behind. It’ll be ok for me as I’ve already experience the same things for so many years.
But I sure will help whoever who ask for my help no matter how they treat me and did to me before. I don’t mind of what had happened previously. A friend in need is a friend indeed. That’s me! This is one of my personality. I feel proud of myself! My mother always say, “don’t care or mind of how people treat you but the most important is how you treat people.”
Who we’ve to beware of? Friends or family members? Of course anyone will do. Why? It’s because people around you even your friends and relatives, they may also talk about your bad and even betray you. As a results, the best is trust yourself and not others!
Sometimes, they even send to wrong message to others and cause many troubles. It may cause misunderstanding among your friends and will quarrel among each other. It’s very serious as sometime will affect the friendships and even lose your best friend.
When it happen? It happened especially when there’s appearance of third party. This third party will sometime misunderstand cause of he or she doesn’t really know what’s happening between two of you. Moreover, it happen also because the person involve send the wrong message to the third party and cause all the misunderstanding and make the whole situation worse.
To be honest, I really hate that kind of people. I don’t understand why they want to do so since I didn’t do anything wrong to them. In my opinion, no matter what happen, the best way to settle is just settle between two of them without involve any third party.
Honesty is the key of any relationship. Similarly, trust is also the key of any relationship. If there’s no trust between two parties, it means there’s meaningless of becoming friends anymore. In another words, we should trust our friends and family. I believe that there’s always hope! So, don’t give up easily. For example, if you didn’t do anything wrong and nobody trust you, then, you should think of some way to prove to everyone that you are right and is not your fault. You should explain to them. And do something so that they trust you again. Action is always better than do nothing.
Actually do you know that you really disappoint me? You rather trust a person that you just knew a month ago than trusting me since that you’ve know me more than half a year. What kind of people is this? Lack of trust between us. In addition, she also always tell you the wrong thing and causes many of misunderstand among us. I really don’t understand what’s the purpose of she doing so. Forgive and forget. As long as I’m not that kind of person, I don’t mind what you think or say. But the whole world can misunderstand me except for you (N) and my family! You all shouldn’t misunderstand me! It’s just a matter of trust among people. So, to avoid from all this happen again, I'll be more aware of people around me.
If left me alone in the house which means everyone already return to their hometown, will anyone accompany me? Of course the actual answer is NO! NO! NO! Likewise, when I need help, will anyone help me? The answer is also NO! NO! NO! So, you better don’t hope for anything as it’s hopeless! Why are all this happened on me? Why me? I also don’t know the reasons behind. It’ll be ok for me as I’ve already experience the same things for so many years.
But I sure will help whoever who ask for my help no matter how they treat me and did to me before. I don’t mind of what had happened previously. A friend in need is a friend indeed. That’s me! This is one of my personality. I feel proud of myself! My mother always say, “don’t care or mind of how people treat you but the most important is how you treat people.”
Sunday, February 03, 2008
~ Lie ~
Psychologists who study deception, though, are quick to warn that there is no foolproof method. Bella DePaulo, a visiting professor of psychology at the University of California, Santa Barbara, writes that “lying is not a distinct psychological process with its own unique behavioral indicators. It does matter how liars feel and how they think.” Indeed, many of the tell-tale signs common to liars, like fidgeting and sweating, can also be signs of ordinary anxiety. It’s tough to tell the difference between a liar and an honest person who happens to be under a lot of stress.
Why they want to tell lie? A person tell lie is because he or she wants to hide something from others. Or may be because they want to protect themselves or they afraid that they will cause trouble after telling the truth. The person, however, who seems to feel compelled to lie about both the small and large stuff has a problem. We often call these folks pathological liars (which is a description, not a diagnosis). They lie to protect themselves, look good, gain financially or socially and avoid punishment.
Psychologists who study deception, though, are quick to warn that there is no foolproof method. Bella DePaulo, a visiting professor of psychology at the University of California, Santa Barbara, writes that “lying is not a distinct psychological process with its own unique behavioral indicators. It does matter how liars feel and how they think.” Indeed, many of the tell-tale signs common to liars, like fidgeting and sweating, can also be signs of ordinary anxiety. It’s tough to tell the difference between a liar and an honest person who happens to be under a lot of stress.
Why they want to tell lie? A person tell lie is because he or she wants to hide something from others. Or may be because they want to protect themselves or they afraid that they will cause trouble after telling the truth. The person, however, who seems to feel compelled to lie about both the small and large stuff has a problem. We often call these folks pathological liars (which is a description, not a diagnosis). They lie to protect themselves, look good, gain financially or socially and avoid punishment.
I hate people tell lie! Why do we dislike liars, especially sociopaths, so much? It’s a matter of trust. When a person lies, they have broken a bond – an unspoken agreement to treat others as we would like to be treated.
Clues of people tell lie :
1) Avoidance of eye contact : Usually someone makes eye contact at least half the time they are talking to you. If you notice them avoiding eye contact or looking down during a specific part of a conversation, they may well be lying.
2) Change of voice : A variation in pitch of voice or rate of speech can be a sign of lying. So can lots of umms and ahhs.
3) Body language : Turning your body away, covering your face or mouth, a lot of fidgeting of hands or legs can indicate deception.
4) Contradicting yourself : Making statements that just don’t hold together should make you suspicious.
Reasons of people tell lie :
1) Fear of harm : The easiest reason to understand why we lie is for self protection, including self deception, to prevent harm to ourselves. This harm can be either physical or mental.
2) Fear of conflict : To some degree, we all fear having an argument.
3) Fear of punishment : When growing up, how often did we lie about how well we did in school, or who started a fight? How often do we cover up our mistakes and transgressions?
4) Fear of rejection : Sometimes, our insecurities are the foundation of why we lie to each other, because we want to be remain popular in our relationships. Typically, it is harmless boasting to make ourselves appear more admirable to other people.
5) Fear of loss : This is usually the loss of personal objects, such as money or expensive valuables. Greed is the foundation for this reason and can be found in each of us. We often lie to make ourselves more desirable to other people too. Most common, people lie for fear of losing an opportunity to have sex. Other times, when our self esteem starts to decline, we even lie to ourselves as means to prevent loss of morale.
6) Altruistic Reasons : We often lie to help our friends and loved ones. How often do we flattery someone just to make them feel better? This is the only selfless reason why we lie.
6) Altruistic Reasons : We often lie to help our friends and loved ones. How often do we flattery someone just to make them feel better? This is the only selfless reason why we lie.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
~ SLEEPY ~
Oh no, is already 4am. It’s a cold and silent night. And there’s many mosquito. But I still haven’t sleep. Why? It’s because I’ve to stay awake to take care of my grandma as everyone already sleep. We’ve been started to take turn to take care my grandma every night since she got stroke. I’m alone and very sleepy now. I hope time will pass faster so that there’s someone wake up to take over my job.
There’s 2 or 3 hours more to go. What can I do now? The only thing I can do is just watch drama so that time will pass faster and also can keep me stay awake. It’s such a lonely and boring night as there’s no one for me to talk to.
Actually the moment I like the most for everyday is sunrise. In my opinion, sunrise means that it’s a brand new day and everything will starts all over again. But today will be better than yesterday! I’ve never see the scene of sunrise before. I hope I’ve a chance to see it. I think it is sure very beautiful and will be the most memorable moment for many people. I wonder when will be the day?
Oh no, is already 4am. It’s a cold and silent night. And there’s many mosquito. But I still haven’t sleep. Why? It’s because I’ve to stay awake to take care of my grandma as everyone already sleep. We’ve been started to take turn to take care my grandma every night since she got stroke. I’m alone and very sleepy now. I hope time will pass faster so that there’s someone wake up to take over my job.
There’s 2 or 3 hours more to go. What can I do now? The only thing I can do is just watch drama so that time will pass faster and also can keep me stay awake. It’s such a lonely and boring night as there’s no one for me to talk to.
Actually the moment I like the most for everyday is sunrise. In my opinion, sunrise means that it’s a brand new day and everything will starts all over again. But today will be better than yesterday! I’ve never see the scene of sunrise before. I hope I’ve a chance to see it. I think it is sure very beautiful and will be the most memorable moment for many people. I wonder when will be the day?
~ MeMoRY of RaINBoW ~
By refering to the picture, can u see a spectrum of light is appearing in the sky when the Sun shines onto droplets of moisture in the earth's atmosphere? It is a rainbow that use to appear after rain and is just like a brand new day that brings hope to everyone again! The rainbow always reminds me of what my mother had told me. She used to say, " Quick! Make a wish! It may make your dream comes true! Because it is very hard to see a rainbow unless you are very lucky." So, whenever i see a rainbow, I will quickly make a wish. Furthermore, it also reminds me about my childhood. My cousins, my sister and I used to do experiment because of our curiousity. We used the hose which was at my grandparents garden to spray water all over the grass under the hot sun and we could see the continuous spectrum of colours which looked like a rainbow. It is amazing and very beautiful! Unfortunately, we would be scolded by our parents or grandparents later because we were wasting the water. But we were so naughty and even could laugh after being scolded by them and we would still play again afterwards. It was a part of my childhood's sweet memory.
Friday, February 01, 2008
~ Hard to Face! ~
E, I really don't know how to face you sometimes as things seems like becoming worse from time to time. But for sure i won't avoid from you. Nomatter how much you misunderstand me or whatever, i still will always treat you as my friend. You're always welcome my friend!
There's some misunderstand between us that i also don't know how to explain to you. But for sure i din't do anything wrong or bad. Sorry if i did say anything wrong and make you dislike it. But what i said is all what i see and also my point of view.
I hope that one day, we'll be as usual friend without misunderstand anymore! Because i really hate now! Hate all this! I hope everyone will be happy and healthy always! =>
E, I really don't know how to face you sometimes as things seems like becoming worse from time to time. But for sure i won't avoid from you. Nomatter how much you misunderstand me or whatever, i still will always treat you as my friend. You're always welcome my friend!
There's some misunderstand between us that i also don't know how to explain to you. But for sure i din't do anything wrong or bad. Sorry if i did say anything wrong and make you dislike it. But what i said is all what i see and also my point of view.
I hope that one day, we'll be as usual friend without misunderstand anymore! Because i really hate now! Hate all this! I hope everyone will be happy and healthy always! =>
~ Current Answer : WAIT ~
I think this answer will make me feel more comfortable than just lying myself. All I want is just be myself! So, please let everything flow naturally and please don't force me to let go you. It is hard and it takes time! It may be a few weeks, months or years. Give me some time for all this and I believe that if i really want to let go you, I sure can do it! Please be confident on me and trust me!
I'm very sorry to say this. I really feel like she make us always misunderstand and 'bu shuang' each other. The most I dislike is a little bit things then she'll tell you and then you'll started to think a lot and misunderstand that i want to play or fool of her. I hate all this! Although she is elder than me one year but she seems like very reliable. Please don't think so much and make things worse! Tell you wat! E, I appreciate our friendship so much! My sis talks about your bad and is all misunderstand and i believe you are not such girl. So, i always stand at your side and help you to explain to her so that she won't misunderstand.
But i don't know why we end up like this. A little bit things then you'll tell him. Why i sms you? Cause as a friend, I just want to concern and care you. I care all my friends! If you feel weird or don't understand what i try to mean so just ask me. Don't feel scare or 'pai seh' then go tell the third party and you will make everything worse! I bag you, please don't ever do that again! Please let me live peacefully! i just want to live an ordinary life! Don't worry......we're still friends forever!
I think this answer will make me feel more comfortable than just lying myself. All I want is just be myself! So, please let everything flow naturally and please don't force me to let go you. It is hard and it takes time! It may be a few weeks, months or years. Give me some time for all this and I believe that if i really want to let go you, I sure can do it! Please be confident on me and trust me!
I'm very sorry to say this. I really feel like she make us always misunderstand and 'bu shuang' each other. The most I dislike is a little bit things then she'll tell you and then you'll started to think a lot and misunderstand that i want to play or fool of her. I hate all this! Although she is elder than me one year but she seems like very reliable. Please don't think so much and make things worse! Tell you wat! E, I appreciate our friendship so much! My sis talks about your bad and is all misunderstand and i believe you are not such girl. So, i always stand at your side and help you to explain to her so that she won't misunderstand.
But i don't know why we end up like this. A little bit things then you'll tell him. Why i sms you? Cause as a friend, I just want to concern and care you. I care all my friends! If you feel weird or don't understand what i try to mean so just ask me. Don't feel scare or 'pai seh' then go tell the third party and you will make everything worse! I bag you, please don't ever do that again! Please let me live peacefully! i just want to live an ordinary life! Don't worry......we're still friends forever!
~ A MeaNinGFuL DaY! ~
Finally, i had finished pack all my things. i had spent my whole day just to clean my room and table. Things that want to throw are more than things to keep. Although it is a tiring day but is meaningful because today is the last day of exam for my all housemates and i had accompany them study till 3++am this morning by reading their drama story as well. I also purposely woke up at 6am to eat breakfast at Mc.D with them. I really enjoy so much when with them.
Then, i went to 'pasar malam' with my housemates from 6-8pm. We bought a lot of food and also some firecracker due to Cinese New Year is coming soon! I played 'pop' at the balcony with them and we planned to play the electric sparklers later. After that, we will buy ice from the 'mamak' stall down there to add into our 'longan' drinks to celebrate for the end of our exam.
I think this will be the last time for going out with my housemates as they will be graduate soon and they are going to move back to their hometown. I will be loosing such good housemates like them. I appreciate all the time that we've been together! Thanks for giving me so many sweet memory with all of you! Thanks very much! I sure will miss you all so much! The door is always open for all of you and welcome back to this house anytime whenever you all feel free to come back. =)
Finally, i had finished pack all my things. i had spent my whole day just to clean my room and table. Things that want to throw are more than things to keep. Although it is a tiring day but is meaningful because today is the last day of exam for my all housemates and i had accompany them study till 3++am this morning by reading their drama story as well. I also purposely woke up at 6am to eat breakfast at Mc.D with them. I really enjoy so much when with them.
Then, i went to 'pasar malam' with my housemates from 6-8pm. We bought a lot of food and also some firecracker due to Cinese New Year is coming soon! I played 'pop' at the balcony with them and we planned to play the electric sparklers later. After that, we will buy ice from the 'mamak' stall down there to add into our 'longan' drinks to celebrate for the end of our exam.
I think this will be the last time for going out with my housemates as they will be graduate soon and they are going to move back to their hometown. I will be loosing such good housemates like them. I appreciate all the time that we've been together! Thanks for giving me so many sweet memory with all of you! Thanks very much! I sure will miss you all so much! The door is always open for all of you and welcome back to this house anytime whenever you all feel free to come back. =)
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