~ Problems ~

Aih…is already 4.30am. Why I am still stay awake? Actually every night about 3.30am I will wake up then until may be 5am only can continue sleep again. What is in my mind? Results! Results! Results! It’s all over my mind. I can’t wait for the results release in next semester. I’m extremely worried of my results ever since my exam had finished.

Every day and night I can’t stop thinking of what kind of results I will get? Passed with flying colours? Or fail either of the subjects? Oh God, please let me pass all the 6 subjects with flying colours. I keep on praying everyday for my results.

Although one of my friends had told me to be confidence in whatever things we do. I always believe that I sure can pass all my subjects with flying colours without fail either of it. Even if so, but I still very worry that what if I fail either of it? I sure can’t accept the fact of failing wither of the subjects. Then, I sure will start to act abnormally and may be even do some crazy stuff which normally I won’t do it. I might be crazy or act abnormally for one week or one month.

My family problems have become more and more serious and my mum is already hopeless, can’t help her anymore. I’m quite disappointed when I back Kuantan for semester break this time. Every thing has change since my dearest grandma had passed away on 29/3/2008. My pity grandpa has nothing to eat. They only let him eat a few pieces of biscuits with plain water. How can an old man survive like this? He has not enough nutrients and getting thinner and thinner. How can they treat him like that? He’s our grandpa or their father or father-in-law. It’s cruel! So, every morning when I am out breakfast with my dad, I will buy some food for my grandpa for his tea break. It is at least much better than see him only eat few pieces of biscuits with plain water.

The noisy and full with laughter house had become a gloomy and quiet house since my grandma passed away. Many of them seldom go back to visit my grandpa. And those family politics had occurred. It’s very sad and heartache to see so. Luckily my grandpa still alive, else, I think I don’t need to go back to my grandparents’ house anymore. I really miss those days when everyone gather and joke together at my grandparents’ house. Although half a year had passed, but I still will burst into tears whenever I miss my grandma so much sometimes. I believe my grandma would not want to see this if she’s still alive.

I have a lot of friends; I also have many good friends. But it doesn’t mean I have a true and best friend. I really don’t know who to tell all my problems. That’s why I choose to keep it in the thousand meters deep bottom of my heart. Firstly, I thought of sharing it with my elder sister, but can’t because she also got her own problems and very busy with her activities and studies. So, I don’t want to add on her burden. In college, I have a friend to share with but I think sometimes I make her feel annoying and irritating. Although she didn’t say so, but can see from the way she acts. Lastly, my last choice is my ex-best friend who is one of my housemates now. I trust him so much but I choose not to tell him after so many things had happened because I scare I will make him feel trying. In conclusion, nobody can tell, right? So, the very last choice is keep it and don’t tell. I really hope we can return to like previously we can talk everything. Then, I don’t need to keep it anymore. I hope you will be my listener and adviser no matter what happen every time. I remember you had told me before that we must look forward, don’t look back to the past, must always improve ourselves. But no matter what, no one can live alone, right? Still need some one to talk to, right? I really hope you can always be my listener and adviser in those coming days.

It’s already 5.30 am. So, I shall stop here and go to sleep now. Hope you will get what I mean in the last few sentences in the second last paragraph. Look forward for the next semester and my results. I hope my results will be passed with flying colours.

~ Commend From my Ex-Roommate (1st roommate) , KS ~

2008年9月14日 星期日

室友篇

艺颖，你要我写一篇关于你。

现在，我写了。

我知道，其实你是在意别人怎么看你的。 是吗？

我觉得这样没有错。我也是这样的人。

其实，只是假假不在意而已。（我会假假偷听别人有没有讲我的坏话。不能告诉别人哦）：）

很羡慕她做人处事的能力。很羡慕她那容易认识朋友的性格。

啊， 你几时看《家好月圆》？ 很喜欢“管家仔”的角色。

你看了记得跟我讲你喜不喜欢你的林峰作的管家仔”角色。

这一篇是我很夜写的，因为明天要回ＫＬ见你啦，很紧张。　嘻，骗你的啦。　

因为这样写你会不会觉得很感动，很惊喜叻？

我要回去了，记得。。。。sorry 网上不宜。不写了。

以后，　写一篇打马赛克的给你。> . –

是不是，应该写英文叻？　现在，我的英文不好。　白涩。

跟你讲一样东西啊。

阿，还有一样东西。　我的室友是一个很好说话的人。可以跟她讲很多东西。

包括我的一些秘密。我相信很多人都喜欢跟她讲东西，讲话吧。可以让人很放心。

阿，我要跟你讲的东西是。。。呃。。。。　那我以后可不可以在MSN上跟你讲话，讲心事阿？ 残了，给我妹看到她会不会吃醋？（妹，因为你常很忙咯！）

我要跟你讲的东西是我去见工了！ 是兼职幼儿园老师，教四岁的小朋友。四岁一定很可爱 ^^ 。 但是没开始， 因为那工交通不方便。

Sorry 在这里很长写了那么多。

你跟我讲过你有个知己。 很羡慕你。真的。

现在，或者开心为什么写布落格，

可以分享一些些东西。 （原谅我写得一块块。）

英文要加强，中文也要加强。

谢谢你跟我分享怎样认识朋友。

还有，要保护自己！

不要那么心软，也不要那么心硬。

不要那么心软，是因为你要不让人容易欺负你。

不要那么心硬，是因为。。。（不知怎么写，　总之你应该知道我讲什么。）

我朋友很少。　

离开KL 后，又少了一个朋友在身边。

但无论怎样，“朋友，加油吧！ ”

发表者 lis vespera 位置在： 上午11:46