~ LiFe iN NeW HouSe ~
I’m no longer as talkative as last time anymore ever since I shifted to my new house a month ago. Slowly and slowly I’m returning back to last time the quiet me who even can didn’t talk for a few months when I first entered my secondary school. Never judge a book from its cover. No one knows how I actually feel now and nobody expect I will become like this. Although I always smile and laugh, but am I really smile and laugh from bottom of my heart? Does it matter? May be it doesn’t matter. So long as I always bring happiness to people then my life sure will be more meaningful and wonderful.
I’m more easily happy than sad. I can even laugh when people scolded me. What I laugh for? Actually I always laugh at my own mistakes then after that, I will change it and avoid from repeating the same mistake again. Furthermore, I also laugh myself when I fell down though is embarrassing. You may think that I’m crazy but actually I’m not because that’s me, Sjhvaun Khong Yi Yin. You will know me better when you get to know me.
Oh no! I’m out of topic. Ok, return to the main topic, ‘life in my new house’. Do I feel lonely at home? Honestly, yes, sometimes I do feel lonely. Sometimes my housemates and roommate may think that I’m weird. My life is just study and nothing other than that. Normally, I prefer to stay back in library to study or do homework after class. This habit had occurred since last semester where by I dislike go home mainly because I didn’t want to go home to see my ex-roommate. That time may be because I couldn’t stand of her strange attitude. But I cannot deny saying that I don’t have attitude problem. I believe that I also have some attitude problems sometimes. Although how worst was the situation, I still will share all my problems with my previous roommate once I back from college regardless of happy or sad things, I still will tell. But now, I never even share my problems neither with my new roommate nor housemates. I never talk or talk extremely less once I back home nowadays. I rather keep all my problems in the deep bottom of my heart also I won’t say out. May be because I don’t get along with them, I always stay in my own room once I back home. What I’m doing in my room? Watch series or anime or study or do homework. Mostly, I will just do homework and study by listening songs. That’s my life! Actually I have a quite close friend in my current house. But I don’t know why I talk less or even don’t talk nowadays. I really don’t know why. Whenever I face difficulty, I will think of all sorts of ways to settle it myself and I never ask for my housemates or roommate’s help. One of the reason of always be in my room may be because of I think that I have my own life and they have their own life. Everyone has their own freedom and own life. And that’s why I never inform anyone, not even my roommate about where I went and what time I’m going back although sometimes I do go home late.
So, believe or not, that’s the yi yin in the new house. And that’s my life in my new house.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Sunday, October 05, 2008
~ First Dinner at my New House ~
I can never feel that kind of feeling (family warm) again ever since my grandma passed away. My family has a lot of problem and it can't be solve already. For very long time, I unable to eat home cooking food as my mum don't cook for family anymore. So, we have to always eat outside.
Today, again I can feel the warm of a family. Thanks to my housemates and their parents! Thanks a lot for cooking for us too! The dishes and porridge were delicious! Because of them, I able to taste home cooking again. Thx God too! Thanks God for arranging all these for me!
During the dinner, there were soup, fry egg, chicken and potatoes. It's tasty! Although my housemate accidentally cooked the rice into porridge for us but I don't mind whether it's rice or porridge. It's still very delicious. My seat was facing the balcony and could see the blue sky. It’s a memorable evening. I will never forget the dinner and blue sky which very different from other days. To me, it's a meaningful and unforgettable dinner. A table of ten of us included my housemates’ parents were enjoying the dinner. We sat and ate together. It was just like a reunion dinner which every1 sitting together and eating on the same table. It's touching. I hope I can able to feel so again. Thx everyone (all my housemates, their parents and my roommate)! I will never able get to feel so without all of you. I will never forget such memorable moment!
I can never feel that kind of feeling (family warm) again ever since my grandma passed away. My family has a lot of problem and it can't be solve already. For very long time, I unable to eat home cooking food as my mum don't cook for family anymore. So, we have to always eat outside.
Today, again I can feel the warm of a family. Thanks to my housemates and their parents! Thanks a lot for cooking for us too! The dishes and porridge were delicious! Because of them, I able to taste home cooking again. Thx God too! Thanks God for arranging all these for me!
During the dinner, there were soup, fry egg, chicken and potatoes. It's tasty! Although my housemate accidentally cooked the rice into porridge for us but I don't mind whether it's rice or porridge. It's still very delicious. My seat was facing the balcony and could see the blue sky. It’s a memorable evening. I will never forget the dinner and blue sky which very different from other days. To me, it's a meaningful and unforgettable dinner. A table of ten of us included my housemates’ parents were enjoying the dinner. We sat and ate together. It was just like a reunion dinner which every1 sitting together and eating on the same table. It's touching. I hope I can able to feel so again. Thx everyone (all my housemates, their parents and my roommate)! I will never able get to feel so without all of you. I will never forget such memorable moment!
~ Bath in My New Bathroom ~
Wow…wow…wow….it was so cool & interesting! It was my first time taking bath in my new house. In other words, I was bathing in my new bathroom for the first time! I will never forget that kind of feelings. I don’t know how to describe it, but it made me feel speechless and yet excited. It might be my unforgettable experience.
As I don’t have any experience in washing my clothes myself, so I just simply rub it by using hand on the floor in the bathroom. But the floor is so dirty. It looks dirtier than my previous house. When I was rubbing my clothes, I saw those yellow colour bubbles flowing out. I was wondering it’s from my clothes or the floor? Haha….I kept felt very ‘geli’ while I was washing my clothes as the floor is so dirty. I spend more than half an hour just to wash two of my T-shirts. Oh my god…it’s so long, right? Actually it was a very good experience for me. Since then, I can feel it’s not easy for my grandma to wash our clothes by using hand. Finally, I’m able to feel how’s the feeling of washing clothes by using hand rub. It’s a hard job. But it considered fun for my first time.
Wow…wow…wow….it was so cool & interesting! It was my first time taking bath in my new house. In other words, I was bathing in my new bathroom for the first time! I will never forget that kind of feelings. I don’t know how to describe it, but it made me feel speechless and yet excited. It might be my unforgettable experience.
As I don’t have any experience in washing my clothes myself, so I just simply rub it by using hand on the floor in the bathroom. But the floor is so dirty. It looks dirtier than my previous house. When I was rubbing my clothes, I saw those yellow colour bubbles flowing out. I was wondering it’s from my clothes or the floor? Haha….I kept felt very ‘geli’ while I was washing my clothes as the floor is so dirty. I spend more than half an hour just to wash two of my T-shirts. Oh my god…it’s so long, right? Actually it was a very good experience for me. Since then, I can feel it’s not easy for my grandma to wash our clothes by using hand. Finally, I’m able to feel how’s the feeling of washing clothes by using hand rub. It’s a hard job. But it considered fun for my first time.
Friday, September 26, 2008
~ Problems ~
Aih…is already 4.30am. Why I am still stay awake? Actually every night about 3.30am I will wake up then until may be 5am only can continue sleep again. What is in my mind? Results! Results! Results! It’s all over my mind. I can’t wait for the results release in next semester. I’m extremely worried of my results ever since my exam had finished.
Every day and night I can’t stop thinking of what kind of results I will get? Passed with flying colours? Or fail either of the subjects? Oh God, please let me pass all the 6 subjects with flying colours. I keep on praying everyday for my results.
Although one of my friends had told me to be confidence in whatever things we do. I always believe that I sure can pass all my subjects with flying colours without fail either of it. Even if so, but I still very worry that what if I fail either of it? I sure can’t accept the fact of failing wither of the subjects. Then, I sure will start to act abnormally and may be even do some crazy stuff which normally I won’t do it. I might be crazy or act abnormally for one week or one month.
My family problems have become more and more serious and my mum is already hopeless, can’t help her anymore. I’m quite disappointed when I back Kuantan for semester break this time. Every thing has change since my dearest grandma had passed away on 29/3/2008. My pity grandpa has nothing to eat. They only let him eat a few pieces of biscuits with plain water. How can an old man survive like this? He has not enough nutrients and getting thinner and thinner. How can they treat him like that? He’s our grandpa or their father or father-in-law. It’s cruel! So, every morning when I am out breakfast with my dad, I will buy some food for my grandpa for his tea break. It is at least much better than see him only eat few pieces of biscuits with plain water.
The noisy and full with laughter house had become a gloomy and quiet house since my grandma passed away. Many of them seldom go back to visit my grandpa. And those family politics had occurred. It’s very sad and heartache to see so. Luckily my grandpa still alive, else, I think I don’t need to go back to my grandparents’ house anymore. I really miss those days when everyone gather and joke together at my grandparents’ house. Although half a year had passed, but I still will burst into tears whenever I miss my grandma so much sometimes. I believe my grandma would not want to see this if she’s still alive.
I have a lot of friends; I also have many good friends. But it doesn’t mean I have a true and best friend. I really don’t know who to tell all my problems. That’s why I choose to keep it in the thousand meters deep bottom of my heart. Firstly, I thought of sharing it with my elder sister, but can’t because she also got her own problems and very busy with her activities and studies. So, I don’t want to add on her burden. In college, I have a friend to share with but I think sometimes I make her feel annoying and irritating. Although she didn’t say so, but can see from the way she acts. Lastly, my last choice is my ex-best friend who is one of my housemates now. I trust him so much but I choose not to tell him after so many things had happened because I scare I will make him feel trying. In conclusion, nobody can tell, right? So, the very last choice is keep it and don’t tell. I really hope we can return to like previously we can talk everything. Then, I don’t need to keep it anymore. I hope you will be my listener and adviser no matter what happen every time. I remember you had told me before that we must look forward, don’t look back to the past, must always improve ourselves. But no matter what, no one can live alone, right? Still need some one to talk to, right? I really hope you can always be my listener and adviser in those coming days.
It’s already 5.30 am. So, I shall stop here and go to sleep now. Hope you will get what I mean in the last few sentences in the second last paragraph. Look forward for the next semester and my results. I hope my results will be passed with flying colours.
Aih…is already 4.30am. Why I am still stay awake? Actually every night about 3.30am I will wake up then until may be 5am only can continue sleep again. What is in my mind? Results! Results! Results! It’s all over my mind. I can’t wait for the results release in next semester. I’m extremely worried of my results ever since my exam had finished.
Every day and night I can’t stop thinking of what kind of results I will get? Passed with flying colours? Or fail either of the subjects? Oh God, please let me pass all the 6 subjects with flying colours. I keep on praying everyday for my results.
Although one of my friends had told me to be confidence in whatever things we do. I always believe that I sure can pass all my subjects with flying colours without fail either of it. Even if so, but I still very worry that what if I fail either of it? I sure can’t accept the fact of failing wither of the subjects. Then, I sure will start to act abnormally and may be even do some crazy stuff which normally I won’t do it. I might be crazy or act abnormally for one week or one month.
My family problems have become more and more serious and my mum is already hopeless, can’t help her anymore. I’m quite disappointed when I back Kuantan for semester break this time. Every thing has change since my dearest grandma had passed away on 29/3/2008. My pity grandpa has nothing to eat. They only let him eat a few pieces of biscuits with plain water. How can an old man survive like this? He has not enough nutrients and getting thinner and thinner. How can they treat him like that? He’s our grandpa or their father or father-in-law. It’s cruel! So, every morning when I am out breakfast with my dad, I will buy some food for my grandpa for his tea break. It is at least much better than see him only eat few pieces of biscuits with plain water.
The noisy and full with laughter house had become a gloomy and quiet house since my grandma passed away. Many of them seldom go back to visit my grandpa. And those family politics had occurred. It’s very sad and heartache to see so. Luckily my grandpa still alive, else, I think I don’t need to go back to my grandparents’ house anymore. I really miss those days when everyone gather and joke together at my grandparents’ house. Although half a year had passed, but I still will burst into tears whenever I miss my grandma so much sometimes. I believe my grandma would not want to see this if she’s still alive.
I have a lot of friends; I also have many good friends. But it doesn’t mean I have a true and best friend. I really don’t know who to tell all my problems. That’s why I choose to keep it in the thousand meters deep bottom of my heart. Firstly, I thought of sharing it with my elder sister, but can’t because she also got her own problems and very busy with her activities and studies. So, I don’t want to add on her burden. In college, I have a friend to share with but I think sometimes I make her feel annoying and irritating. Although she didn’t say so, but can see from the way she acts. Lastly, my last choice is my ex-best friend who is one of my housemates now. I trust him so much but I choose not to tell him after so many things had happened because I scare I will make him feel trying. In conclusion, nobody can tell, right? So, the very last choice is keep it and don’t tell. I really hope we can return to like previously we can talk everything. Then, I don’t need to keep it anymore. I hope you will be my listener and adviser no matter what happen every time. I remember you had told me before that we must look forward, don’t look back to the past, must always improve ourselves. But no matter what, no one can live alone, right? Still need some one to talk to, right? I really hope you can always be my listener and adviser in those coming days.
It’s already 5.30 am. So, I shall stop here and go to sleep now. Hope you will get what I mean in the last few sentences in the second last paragraph. Look forward for the next semester and my results. I hope my results will be passed with flying colours.
~ Commend From my Ex-Roommate (1st roommate) , KS ~
2008年9月14日 星期日
室友篇
艺颖，你要我写一篇关于你。
现在，我写了。
我知道，其实你是在意别人怎么看你的。 是吗？
我觉得这样没有错。我也是这样的人。
其实，只是假假不在意而已。（我会假假偷听别人有没有讲我的坏话。不能告诉别人哦）：）
很羡慕她做人处事的能力。很羡慕她那容易认识朋友的性格。
啊， 你几时看《家好月圆》？ 很喜欢“管家仔”的角色。
你看了记得跟我讲你喜不喜欢你的林峰作的管家仔”角色。
这一篇是我很夜写的，因为明天要回ＫＬ见你啦，很紧张。 嘻，骗你的啦。
因为这样写你会不会觉得很感动，很惊喜叻？
我要回去了，记得。。。。sorry 网上不宜。不写了。
以后， 写一篇打马赛克的给你。> . –
是不是，应该写英文叻？ 现在，我的英文不好。 白涩。
跟你讲一样东西啊。
阿，还有一样东西。 我的室友是一个很好说话的人。可以跟她讲很多东西。
包括我的一些秘密。我相信很多人都喜欢跟她讲东西，讲话吧。可以让人很放心。
阿，我要跟你讲的东西是。。。呃。。。。 那我以后可不可以在MSN上跟你讲话，讲心事阿？ 残了，给我妹看到她会不会吃醋？（妹，因为你常很忙咯！）
我要跟你讲的东西是我去见工了！ 是兼职幼儿园老师，教四岁的小朋友。四岁一定很可爱 ^^ 。 但是没开始， 因为那工交通不方便。
Sorry 在这里很长写了那么多。
你跟我讲过你有个知己。 很羡慕你。真的。
现在，或者开心为什么写布落格，
可以分享一些些东西。 （原谅我写得一块块。）
英文要加强，中文也要加强。
谢谢你跟我分享怎样认识朋友。
还有，要保护自己！
不要那么心软，也不要那么心硬。
不要那么心软，是因为你要不让人容易欺负你。
不要那么心硬，是因为。。。（不知怎么写， 总之你应该知道我讲什么。）
我朋友很少。
离开KL 后，又少了一个朋友在身边。
但无论怎样，“朋友，加油吧！ ”
发表者 lis vespera 位置在： 上午11:46
2008年9月14日 星期日
室友篇
艺颖，你要我写一篇关于你。
现在，我写了。
我知道，其实你是在意别人怎么看你的。 是吗？
我觉得这样没有错。我也是这样的人。
其实，只是假假不在意而已。（我会假假偷听别人有没有讲我的坏话。不能告诉别人哦）：）
很羡慕她做人处事的能力。很羡慕她那容易认识朋友的性格。
啊， 你几时看《家好月圆》？ 很喜欢“管家仔”的角色。
你看了记得跟我讲你喜不喜欢你的林峰作的管家仔”角色。
这一篇是我很夜写的，因为明天要回ＫＬ见你啦，很紧张。 嘻，骗你的啦。
因为这样写你会不会觉得很感动，很惊喜叻？
我要回去了，记得。。。。sorry 网上不宜。不写了。
以后， 写一篇打马赛克的给你。> . –
是不是，应该写英文叻？ 现在，我的英文不好。 白涩。
跟你讲一样东西啊。
阿，还有一样东西。 我的室友是一个很好说话的人。可以跟她讲很多东西。
包括我的一些秘密。我相信很多人都喜欢跟她讲东西，讲话吧。可以让人很放心。
阿，我要跟你讲的东西是。。。呃。。。。 那我以后可不可以在MSN上跟你讲话，讲心事阿？ 残了，给我妹看到她会不会吃醋？（妹，因为你常很忙咯！）
我要跟你讲的东西是我去见工了！ 是兼职幼儿园老师，教四岁的小朋友。四岁一定很可爱 ^^ 。 但是没开始， 因为那工交通不方便。
Sorry 在这里很长写了那么多。
你跟我讲过你有个知己。 很羡慕你。真的。
现在，或者开心为什么写布落格，
可以分享一些些东西。 （原谅我写得一块块。）
英文要加强，中文也要加强。
谢谢你跟我分享怎样认识朋友。
还有，要保护自己！
不要那么心软，也不要那么心硬。
不要那么心软，是因为你要不让人容易欺负你。
不要那么心硬，是因为。。。（不知怎么写， 总之你应该知道我讲什么。）
我朋友很少。
离开KL 后，又少了一个朋友在身边。
但无论怎样，“朋友，加油吧！ ”
发表者 lis vespera 位置在： 上午11:46
Monday, June 02, 2008
~ Can’t Afford to Loose Anything Anymore ~
Firstly, I had lost my dearest grandma who passed away on 29th march 2008. After she passed away, a lot of family politics had exist. My mum and all her brothers and sisters had divided into a few gangs. I believe my grandma doesn’t want to see so. I don’t understand why such things can happen! Why can’t they just get along together as happy as last time. What’s going on? Soon, my mum even don’t allow me and my sister keep on touch with other cousins whom from other gangs. I thought it was my mum’s generation problems and not the next generation problems! We’re innocent! What’s the matter if we keep in touch with other cousins?
I’m in KL. I don’t know what actually happen at my hometown and my mum. Ever since my grandma passed away, my mum has changed a lot. She doesn’t really care of her family. She’s like get addicted with Buddhism. It’s good for sometimes but not until get too addicted till leave the family aside. It’s definitely wrong! She should have always remembered she still has 2 kids which is my younger sister and me. I heard my sister said that my mum always scold her and even not satisfy with her results no matter how good she score or even improve compare to previous exam. My sister even complained to me that my mum seems like treat people’s daughter like her own daughter but treat her own daughter like other people. What’s wrong with her? I also want to know but I can’t as I’m in KL. I want to help my family but it’s a bit hard. I don’t want to see my mum like that. I called her once my results were out and I felt like why she’s like so surprise and a bit like can’t recognize me. I felt strange. How can my mum become like that? I don’t want to loose my mum. Oh mum, please come back and please awake!
Soon, before this semester started, I had lost a best friend of mine. The word “lost” not refers to my best friend had passed away but it refers to my best friend and I are no longer best friend. Not even normal friends too as I don’t trust that friend anymore! But may be just hi-bye friends. For now, I don’t hope to see that friend. I need time for it! Even when I saw that friend in college, I just turned back and walked away. You may say that I’m avoiding but actually not! Is just that I don’t want to see that friend!
Luckily I still have this blog to express everything out. As I’ve no more best friend and no more people I can talk to. So, if anything I just will type out here. If without this blog, I think i'll collapse soon or stress out as I unable to handle all this problems.
Firstly, I had lost my dearest grandma who passed away on 29th march 2008. After she passed away, a lot of family politics had exist. My mum and all her brothers and sisters had divided into a few gangs. I believe my grandma doesn’t want to see so. I don’t understand why such things can happen! Why can’t they just get along together as happy as last time. What’s going on? Soon, my mum even don’t allow me and my sister keep on touch with other cousins whom from other gangs. I thought it was my mum’s generation problems and not the next generation problems! We’re innocent! What’s the matter if we keep in touch with other cousins?
I’m in KL. I don’t know what actually happen at my hometown and my mum. Ever since my grandma passed away, my mum has changed a lot. She doesn’t really care of her family. She’s like get addicted with Buddhism. It’s good for sometimes but not until get too addicted till leave the family aside. It’s definitely wrong! She should have always remembered she still has 2 kids which is my younger sister and me. I heard my sister said that my mum always scold her and even not satisfy with her results no matter how good she score or even improve compare to previous exam. My sister even complained to me that my mum seems like treat people’s daughter like her own daughter but treat her own daughter like other people. What’s wrong with her? I also want to know but I can’t as I’m in KL. I want to help my family but it’s a bit hard. I don’t want to see my mum like that. I called her once my results were out and I felt like why she’s like so surprise and a bit like can’t recognize me. I felt strange. How can my mum become like that? I don’t want to loose my mum. Oh mum, please come back and please awake!
Soon, before this semester started, I had lost a best friend of mine. The word “lost” not refers to my best friend had passed away but it refers to my best friend and I are no longer best friend. Not even normal friends too as I don’t trust that friend anymore! But may be just hi-bye friends. For now, I don’t hope to see that friend. I need time for it! Even when I saw that friend in college, I just turned back and walked away. You may say that I’m avoiding but actually not! Is just that I don’t want to see that friend!
Luckily I still have this blog to express everything out. As I’ve no more best friend and no more people I can talk to. So, if anything I just will type out here. If without this blog, I think i'll collapse soon or stress out as I unable to handle all this problems.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
~ Happy Day ~
Wuhoo! Finally everything is over! Although I might be angry or disappointed sometimes but I fee good after release everything out and finally game over! Yeah!! Yippi!!
I was a bit confused of want to go sing k or go home? But at last I choose to go home to sing k as today is Saturday and is weekend. It’s expensive to sing k on weekend and I wanted to save my money. Although singing karaoke at home myself but still very fun and high! I had sang many songs which with high vocal. Wow…it was damn ‘shuang’! Can express all my feelings and everything out at once! Luckily I was home alone and sang in my room so no one complain. Haha……
After that, I was still not really happy yet. So, I decided to spend some of my money as I had saved a lot of money this week. Then, I went to KLCC BOOK FEST to look for books and bought some Japanese drama series. It was cheap. I love books! I felt so happy to see so many books once I just enter the book fest. Soon, I had forgotten everything and bought things with a happy mood. That’s fun and happy! From this thing, I can prove that I can even leave alone and go out alone without friend. I won’t feel lonely but happy! Actually after that happen, I only realize that I like is the ‘U’ last time and not the ‘U’ know her and started to get influence and change. As a friend, I only can say until here. in the coming future, hope you'll see things clearly. No matter what, today is still my happiest and most enjoyable day! Thanks God for everything! Thanks God!
Wuhoo! Finally everything is over! Although I might be angry or disappointed sometimes but I fee good after release everything out and finally game over! Yeah!! Yippi!!
I was a bit confused of want to go sing k or go home? But at last I choose to go home to sing k as today is Saturday and is weekend. It’s expensive to sing k on weekend and I wanted to save my money. Although singing karaoke at home myself but still very fun and high! I had sang many songs which with high vocal. Wow…it was damn ‘shuang’! Can express all my feelings and everything out at once! Luckily I was home alone and sang in my room so no one complain. Haha……
After that, I was still not really happy yet. So, I decided to spend some of my money as I had saved a lot of money this week. Then, I went to KLCC BOOK FEST to look for books and bought some Japanese drama series. It was cheap. I love books! I felt so happy to see so many books once I just enter the book fest. Soon, I had forgotten everything and bought things with a happy mood. That’s fun and happy! From this thing, I can prove that I can even leave alone and go out alone without friend. I won’t feel lonely but happy! Actually after that happen, I only realize that I like is the ‘U’ last time and not the ‘U’ know her and started to get influence and change. As a friend, I only can say until here. in the coming future, hope you'll see things clearly. No matter what, today is still my happiest and most enjoyable day! Thanks God for everything! Thanks God!
Friday, May 23, 2008
~ Home Alone ~
I’m glad that I’m home alone again! Is very happy of being so as I can sing as loud as I can until the peak of the world! To express everything out at once especially anger will let people feel better after that. From now onwards, me, KHONG YI YIN will be brave! Can stand by myself and accept any challenge! I won’t be afraid of anything anymore! Even facing all the problems by myself or alone!
As long as is my own problem, I’ll settle all by myself and won’t ask for any helps unless is under a team. Furthermore, I won’t tell any friend of my own problem anymore! No friend can be relying on even your very best friend. Even a best friend also can disappoint you!
A friend in need is a friend indeed. How true is this phrase? You try out yourself, and then you’ll know the answer. In my opinion, this phrase is not really true! There’s sometimes you need to help or face any problems by yourself! Especially during urgent or something bad had happened and you need help, there’s no people will help especially your very best and trusted friend! And that’s the time you only can help yourself! I don’t care anymore! So long as I’m happy and that’s all!!
I’m glad that I’m home alone again! Is very happy of being so as I can sing as loud as I can until the peak of the world! To express everything out at once especially anger will let people feel better after that. From now onwards, me, KHONG YI YIN will be brave! Can stand by myself and accept any challenge! I won’t be afraid of anything anymore! Even facing all the problems by myself or alone!
As long as is my own problem, I’ll settle all by myself and won’t ask for any helps unless is under a team. Furthermore, I won’t tell any friend of my own problem anymore! No friend can be relying on even your very best friend. Even a best friend also can disappoint you!
A friend in need is a friend indeed. How true is this phrase? You try out yourself, and then you’ll know the answer. In my opinion, this phrase is not really true! There’s sometimes you need to help or face any problems by yourself! Especially during urgent or something bad had happened and you need help, there’s no people will help especially your very best and trusted friend! And that’s the time you only can help yourself! I don’t care anymore! So long as I’m happy and that’s all!!
Friday, May 16, 2008
~ Because I’m KYY ~
Is a promise! A promise to myself that I’ve to protect myself and be stronger than other girls! And also not to show my weaknesses I front of anyone especially guys! Although sooner or later I’ll be the only girl in my house, but I’m not afraid of it! So what! Actually I thought of shift out long time ago, but I didn’t do so as the main reason is I’m so lucky to stay opposite my lecturer’s house. Furthermore, I quite like the house I’m staying now and I’m happy with it and the rental is also quite cheap. As a result, I won’t shift unless I have to or force to.
If I want to shift, I also won’t ask anyone for help to search for a nice room. It’s my own problem! I’ll settle myself! I don’t need anyone’s help! You may feel weird that why I’m becoming so? Is because of too many times of disappointments until I can’t stand it anymore! I dare not hope or expect for anything anymore. And also I don’t want to be dependable! So, I rather to depend on myself rather than depend on others! Because I’m not like other people can be reliable and got people to protect. I’m not! So, I must be more protective and independent! That’s why I don’t need anyone’s help!
Do you think my friends will visit to my house? No! I don’t think so! Maybe will have a few of them or maybe not even either of them. Will it makes me feel lonely? No, I don’t think so! Maybe will feel that sometimes but I believe that I’ll be able to overcome it! This is all because of I’m KYY and not others!
Is a promise! A promise to myself that I’ve to protect myself and be stronger than other girls! And also not to show my weaknesses I front of anyone especially guys! Although sooner or later I’ll be the only girl in my house, but I’m not afraid of it! So what! Actually I thought of shift out long time ago, but I didn’t do so as the main reason is I’m so lucky to stay opposite my lecturer’s house. Furthermore, I quite like the house I’m staying now and I’m happy with it and the rental is also quite cheap. As a result, I won’t shift unless I have to or force to.
If I want to shift, I also won’t ask anyone for help to search for a nice room. It’s my own problem! I’ll settle myself! I don’t need anyone’s help! You may feel weird that why I’m becoming so? Is because of too many times of disappointments until I can’t stand it anymore! I dare not hope or expect for anything anymore. And also I don’t want to be dependable! So, I rather to depend on myself rather than depend on others! Because I’m not like other people can be reliable and got people to protect. I’m not! So, I must be more protective and independent! That’s why I don’t need anyone’s help!
Do you think my friends will visit to my house? No! I don’t think so! Maybe will have a few of them or maybe not even either of them. Will it makes me feel lonely? No, I don’t think so! Maybe will feel that sometimes but I believe that I’ll be able to overcome it! This is all because of I’m KYY and not others!
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