~My Smile Dissapear~

I'm having a bad mood almost everyday in this week. I think i'll be mad if i keep thinking about it. Honestly,from primary till now i still have that kind of feeling. When exam is coming or near the school reopen,i'll feel scare. I sure cry everytime a day before the exam or a day before the school reopen.Till now i still don't understand why am i so afraid about it. Then,i'll start giving myself pressure.
I really don't know how to keep myself to be more happier. i've not enough sleep everyday! why? because i still have many holiday works haven't finish yet plus i've to study everyday to back up all the form four subject during this school holidays to prepair for my SPM next year. May be is too early but i don't think so.
My smile has dissapear since Monday till now. Everyday in bad mood & worry for studies until this few days got a bit headache & almost sick! But i always tell myself must be tough don't sick so easily & i can't sick because there are still many things waiting for me to complete.When i'm studying or do my works,i never even talk just silent & tension with what i'm doing. I even can keep become like this the whole day as long as i'm doing my things & studying! you all may say i'm too serious & crazy.Actually i also think i'm getting crazy & mad from day to day. I hope i'll smile again later.