It has been raining since last month after the haze matter solved. It's good to rain to have cooler weather but sometimes it's still very hot after the rain, and it's troublesome as need to carry an umbrella whenever I go.
It's Saturday and I'm home for the whole day again. Recently, just enjoy reading and resting at home during weekend unless my aunts and uncles come down to kl then only I follow them out. Also because of no worth and nice movies to watch in cinema recently, if not, I sure out for movie every Saturday morning at TGV KLCC for only RM8 in the morning before 12pm. It save a lot as normal price is around RM18 or RM20.
I thought of having dinner with my sister and her boyfriend. Nah...please do not get me wrong. Just want to have dinner with my sister but no choice as due to the corn matter, my sister needs her bf to fetch wherever she goes and even to work so I have no choice but to dinner with both of them. And this doesn't mean I accept them. But ended up dinner alone at the Chinese stall.
I was too tired and busy until I had forgotten that my cousin sister from Singapore told me that she will be going back to hometown this week which was yesterday night. I only recall back when I saw her facebook saying that she's on the way back by bus and it's a little jam on the way due to the landslide at Karak highway.
Today is one of my aunt (Shen's mum) birthday too. Everyone is having dinner, enjoying and gathering at one of my cousin's house at hometown. So miss all of them and the atmosphere. Too bad that I only going back next week. After all, we still can meet up during Chinese New Year next year.
What I'm doing now other than blogging? Chatting with friends and cousins on facebook while waiting for something to complete, boring. Later continue watching my dramas and variety show when back home. And suddenly thought of him (the let guy) again but not miss. It's normal as he flashes in mind sometimes. Saturday oh Saturday~.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
- It's Life -
I wonder how life should be? How to live a more happier and interesting life. Everything happens for a reason. What I'm facing now may not be just me, alone facing the same problem. There are so many people in this world who may facing slightly the same problems.
It's normal to have difference problems from time to time. It's just the matter of time and how the person solve it. It's depending on the seriousness and how the person think of the problems. Not everyone choose to face it, there may be people who choose to avoid their problems as may due to they afraid of loosing it or get hurt or the reality is too scary or painful to them to accept it. Not even me, myself can directly deal with my own problems all the time.
"I should resign! I must resign now! But how if I can't find any job yet? What I really want to do? What sort of job I should look for and more suitable for me?", it keeps going round and round in my mind. It's crazy. My body is giving such a bad signal whereby I wake up late sometimes in the morning or tend to search for all sorts of reasons just to skip from work. I understand and very clear that this is a company which I should leave very soon and can't stay any longer.
I can just resign anytime and return to my hometown as there's a permanent job waiting for me. I even can get some of the shares of the company and work there for life. It's such a good opportunities and can save up my rental and transport expenses and even able to take care of my parents all the time. But why? Why I choose to stay here?
It's because it ain't any other places, it's a place i grow up and it's comfortable to live there with my parents and some friends. I'm afraid! I'm afraid that if I were to go back, then I will not be coming out from that place anymore. Not that I can't but it's hard. Deep down my heart will fill with infinite guiltiness if i were to tell my parents that, "mum, dad, it's time for me to go out again, to kl or overseas for work. Till that time, how old I am already? How many years left for me to take care of my parents? How can I just leave them behind?" These are all the facts which causing and pulling my back.
One thing I'm very sure of for now is to get my work done as usual everyday and leave the company as soon as possible once I clear my debts. Till then, I should stay strong, wake up early, go to work and shall not think of any reasons from skipping work. Sometimes, really thought of giving myself an Oscar Award as I'm too good in acting. Such scary actress like me in faking myself in facing something. Please do keep in mind whereby this is not a person should be. Haha.....
I wonder how life should be? How to live a more happier and interesting life. Everything happens for a reason. What I'm facing now may not be just me, alone facing the same problem. There are so many people in this world who may facing slightly the same problems.
It's normal to have difference problems from time to time. It's just the matter of time and how the person solve it. It's depending on the seriousness and how the person think of the problems. Not everyone choose to face it, there may be people who choose to avoid their problems as may due to they afraid of loosing it or get hurt or the reality is too scary or painful to them to accept it. Not even me, myself can directly deal with my own problems all the time.
"I should resign! I must resign now! But how if I can't find any job yet? What I really want to do? What sort of job I should look for and more suitable for me?", it keeps going round and round in my mind. It's crazy. My body is giving such a bad signal whereby I wake up late sometimes in the morning or tend to search for all sorts of reasons just to skip from work. I understand and very clear that this is a company which I should leave very soon and can't stay any longer.
I can just resign anytime and return to my hometown as there's a permanent job waiting for me. I even can get some of the shares of the company and work there for life. It's such a good opportunities and can save up my rental and transport expenses and even able to take care of my parents all the time. But why? Why I choose to stay here?
It's because it ain't any other places, it's a place i grow up and it's comfortable to live there with my parents and some friends. I'm afraid! I'm afraid that if I were to go back, then I will not be coming out from that place anymore. Not that I can't but it's hard. Deep down my heart will fill with infinite guiltiness if i were to tell my parents that, "mum, dad, it's time for me to go out again, to kl or overseas for work. Till that time, how old I am already? How many years left for me to take care of my parents? How can I just leave them behind?" These are all the facts which causing and pulling my back.
One thing I'm very sure of for now is to get my work done as usual everyday and leave the company as soon as possible once I clear my debts. Till then, I should stay strong, wake up early, go to work and shall not think of any reasons from skipping work. Sometimes, really thought of giving myself an Oscar Award as I'm too good in acting. Such scary actress like me in faking myself in facing something. Please do keep in mind whereby this is not a person should be. Haha.....
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